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I'm sad, I used to be able to sit down and think over the keyboard, be able to really go into detail about whatever. Now I can barely stand it. I hope it's just a phase.

So what did I want to say? I closed three nights in a row and the store was still standing when I came back the next day. Thanksgiving was nice, not like the days of old, you couldn't really spread out, but it was okay. We/I got to watch Wonder Woman.

I did a bulk of my Christmas shopping online and I feel pretty guilty about it. I want to support brick and mortar stores, but how is it fair when you deliberately put the better sale online?

Gaia's BFS is so bland, I think it was much more fun last year. I hate this whole... what 4 new items thing a day? But it's good if people are actually able to get something they wanted because it stays in the shop longer. I don't know, it just doesn't make me super excited and wanting to hang around. But that's been a constant problem with Gaia in general lately.

I've been thinking I should find a dating site to join. How can I ever move on when I'm not even trying? And the thing is, I'm so shy. I can't even begin to appeal to a guy because I don't know anyone, or do much? I think I'd be okay, if someone got to know me. But it's not gonna be some fated one time meeting that does anything for me. And I've still been thinking about that person from my past. Every day. But it still doesn't make any sense, so I just tell myself that he was bored and I was dumb, and that's basically what it was all about. Please don't hold that against me.

I hope this coming year will be better, I don't know. I want to get an adult tricycle for myself for Christmas. You can laugh, but I never really learned to ride an actual bicycle. I was always scared I was going to fall. My dad is pushing me to get a license, but I'll just be happy if I can go for milk on a trike. How old am I again?