This is why I lock myself away
I'll be different...
No... they never are...
i love you...
...don't lie to me...
stay...
... why am i so masochistic...
I wish I could just turn back time...
never open up and continue to be your little plaything with no feelings involved.
But now I'm openly crazy and seeking help.
I fear there is no fixing me only locking me away.
When will I learn that I can't tell people this much about me?
When will I learn that I have to keep it all hidden away and my walls around my heart strong?
You've been hurt...
a few times...
You think I haven't?
