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screamrealloud (11:01:01 PM): yo
screamrealloud (11:01:59 PM): what u did to me friend is wrong
Angelgex01 (11:02:23 PM): who is this
screamrealloud (11:03:04 PM): a friend of meghans
Angelgex01 (11:03:18 PM): I know i'm a ******** idiot
Angelgex01 (11:03:25 PM): thankyou very much,
screamrealloud (11:03:35 PM): yes u are
screamrealloud (11:03:39 PM): why did u hurt her?
Angelgex01 (11:03:57 PM): why the hells hould i tell you anything
Angelgex01 (11:04:02 PM): i don't even know who you are
screamrealloud (11:04:14 PM): u're glad that u don't
Angelgex01 (11:04:17 PM): listen, all your doing is reminding me of my stupid goddam mistake
Angelgex01 (11:04:25 PM): leave me alone
screamrealloud (11:04:33 PM): then stop repeating this mistake and i will
Angelgex01 (11:04:36 PM): let me suffer my of my own vvolition
Angelgex01 (11:04:41 PM): what mistake
screamrealloud (11:04:47 PM): u know what u did
Angelgex01 (11:04:58 PM): i haven't reapeated ever since i open my goddamn mouth the first time and said that stupid thing
screamrealloud (11:05:24 PM): she already told me what u did
Angelgex01 (11:05:39 PM): fine i'll leave it will make her happy
Angelgex01 (11:05:50 PM): i'll leave and never come back if thats garenteed to make her happy
screamrealloud (11:05:54 PM): that's not making her happy
Angelgex01 (11:06:15 PM): then what the hell should i do
Angelgex01 (11:06:48 PM): tell me how to do whats right and no matter how it hurts i'll do it in a second
Angelgex01 (11:06:58 PM): no matter how much it hurts me if it makes her happy it's worth it
screamrealloud (11:07:38 PM): just be there for her
screamrealloud (11:07:48 PM): there's alot about her u don't know
Angelgex01 (11:08:07 PM): thers alot about her i'll never know because she won't let me know
screamrealloud (11:08:19 PM): she's afraid to
Angelgex01 (11:08:34 PM): and i'm ******** afraid too
screamrealloud (11:08:42 PM): keep trying
Angelgex01 (11:08:47 PM): you reminding me of what i did was not the smartest thing
screamrealloud (11:08:58 PM): she's never had a dad in her life
Angelgex01 (11:09:01 PM): i was finaly calm, i was finaly forging myself
screamrealloud (11:09:09 PM): i'm srry
Angelgex01 (11:09:17 PM): i can't forgive myself
Angelgex01 (11:09:28 PM): because i hurt her
Angelgex01 (11:09:30 PM): agian
screamrealloud (11:09:42 PM): i know
screamrealloud (11:09:51 PM): my bf did that to me too
Angelgex01 (11:10:01 PM): did what
screamrealloud (11:10:32 PM): he hurt me deeply
screamrealloud (11:10:39 PM): i forgave him and moved on
screamrealloud (11:10:44 PM): we're not perfect
screamrealloud (11:10:50 PM): i don't expect u to be
Angelgex01 (11:10:53 PM): i should be better then this
Angelgex01 (11:10:55 PM): though
Angelgex01 (11:11:05 PM): i'm suupose to be stronger then that
screamrealloud (11:11:52 PM): so u must forgive urself because that won't help u or meghan
screamrealloud (11:12:28 PM): and i want to help both of u
Angelgex01 (11:12:48 PM): i can't forgive myself
Angelgex01 (11:12:49 PM): fully
Angelgex01 (11:12:51 PM): ever
screamrealloud (11:13:18 PM): u can forgive urself but its the forgetting about it that's the hardest
Angelgex01 (11:13:39 PM): yeah
screamrealloud (11:14:24 PM): but if u truly love her then u'll realize that u got a second chance
Angelgex01 (11:15:06 PM): i do truely love her, with all my heart, she's like oxi for me, i can't live with even the thought of her gone
screamrealloud (11:15:41 PM): then forgive and forget
Angelgex01 (11:15:57 PM): she has nothing for me to forgive, she did nothign wrong
screamrealloud (11:16:00 PM): its not easy but if meghan knows how much u care then she'll eventually trust u again
screamrealloud (11:16:10 PM): no i meant forgive urself
Angelgex01 (11:16:33 PM): thats imposible, for now, give it tmeime all things pass in ti
screamrealloud (11:16:45 PM): okay then
screamrealloud (11:16:56 PM): i'll talk to meghan and find out how she feels about u
Angelgex01 (11:17:26 PM): i know how she feels, dear, it's not fully what i want, but it's what i have to explect, i know she loves me more then i can ever love her, but as a friend
screamrealloud (11:17:38 PM): she's let u go
screamrealloud (11:17:45 PM): in time that could change
Angelgex01 (11:18:00 PM): i hope it does, but it's not something i'm willing to risk by rushing
Angelgex01 (11:18:16 PM): i'm quite content with how things are, i'm not going to ruin it by rushing into things
screamrealloud (11:18:39 PM): good idea
screamrealloud (11:18:48 PM): take one thing at a time
screamrealloud (11:18:55 PM): just be there for her
Angelgex01 (11:18:59 PM): i come up with them once or twice a decade
screamrealloud (11:19:38 PM): ?
screamrealloud (11:19:40 PM): confused
Angelgex01 (11:19:52 PM): good idea
Angelgex01 (11:19:56 PM): ideas
Angelgex01 (11:20:03 PM): i come up with them once or twice a decade
screamrealloud (11:20:22 PM): okay
screamrealloud (11:20:29 PM): just do ur best
screamrealloud (11:20:33 PM): i want both of u to be happy
Angelgex01 (11:20:34 PM): i will
Angelgex01 (11:21:13 PM): why do you want me to be happy you don't know me and i'm just an old grump who gets all emo once or twice an hour
screamrealloud (11:21:57 PM): because i hate knowing when people are unhappy
screamrealloud (11:22:03 PM): it makes me sad
Angelgex01 (11:22:13 PM): and you are a good friend and i want you to be happy
screamrealloud (11:23:11 PM): okay thanks
screamrealloud (11:23:18 PM): i'll let u go now
screamrealloud (11:23:24 PM): goodbye and goodluck
Angelgex01 (11:23:29 PM): thanks
screamrealloud (11:24:03 PM): anytime
screamrealloud (11:24:15 PM): if u ever need someone to talk to u can always talk to me
Angelgex01 (11:24:26 PM): awsome, i need that alot, i'll ttyl ok
screamrealloud (11:25:17 PM): ok
screamrealloud (11:25:19 PM): bye