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oi i feel sick still and im way tired and my head is bothering me so i cant think about anything that will help me get to sleep
o but something weid, um, sabrina, do you know anyone on deviant art called ~EvenDeathLies ? it says they added me to their friends list but i dont know why they did. . . .
o yeah and iv been way too lazy to check/reply to comments and deviations. . . . and tired and stressed
hehe bridezillas is on because i was way too lazy to change the channel its the one with the black lady that cries "im the only one thats taking this wedding seriously"
i think im gonna try and go to bed now. . . . *sigh* so sad im all alone jordan's gone youre going mel mel and her sissy (and her pain in the a** brother and her mother) are moving away. . . . hey, they should be up now. . . . hmmmm. . . . nah. . . . i would call if i liked phones. . . . and i would text message if i had my mom's cell phone and it didnt cost anything. . . . except that i despise cell phones and text messaging and everything. . . .
that and the whole "saying goodbye" to melissa thing earlier was so stupid. i went over there to spend some time with them and say goodbye . . . . but all they did was lie there texting people and talking to people on their cell phones. mel mel didnt have one objection to saying goodbye to me, whereas i was told that she had cried earlier when the people shed known less than 5years had left. . . . damn 5 years. . . . iv known her for 13 or more. . . . her sister took things so much harder. she didnt want me to leave and then she started crying (not just about me leaving, but about them moving and all the changes too, of course) mel mel paid no attention to me the whole time and stephani didnt pay attention until a few minutes before we were going to leave. . . . i cant believe mel mel didnt react at all to having to say goodbye to me. and stephani reacted even more than i thought she would. i miss them already. they should be leaving in half an hour. its so sad. iv lost my little sisters. and im only sad about the youngest one. i really dont miss mel mel. its her little sister who, while i never considered myself her friend, iv come to be closer to her than to mel mel. mel mel, geez. she used to be so close to me. she was so much fun to be around and then she got her first boyfriend. thats when i started to not like her as much. she started to change into a boy-crazy preppy child. and now, she has become everything that i am against. and i mean EVERYTHING. and of course, iv changed too. i was once such a happy, carefree, yet shy child who wasnt afraid of anything and wasnt hurt easily. now, iv turned into a metal, emo, anime loving sap who is so easily upset and who hates soooo much and uahgah. . . . weve gone in completely opposite directions, whereas her little sister is like a cross between us two. . . .
iv been listening to songs lately, and suddenly they all start making even more sense to me than they ever did before. and whats worse, is listening to songs that are sooo happy, but now that i listen more closely and can associate them with things, it all seems so much sadder.
anywho, i really need to head off to bed. i was going to just post this in the forum, but im thinking it belongs more in my journal since i went off rambling like this. . . .
(my today) 07/01/2006 The tempting splashes of color in gossip make it hard to keep quiet, but swallow criticism and avoid repeating shocking facts like a parrot. Instead, imitate the wise owl, who asks questions and flies silently. (the "official" today) 07/02/2006 A small difficulty with your vision means that you're seeing double: what you think is going on and reality. Focus hard until the world lines up with your expectations. It may take an hour or two. (the official tomorrow) 07/03/2006 When remodeling a home, tearing things up and renting a dumpster is necessary. Along the same vein, you've got to create strategies for destroying the old and carting it off. Say yes to change and progress! eek rolleyes stare gonk crying
Unni Ineo · Sun Jul 02, 2006 @ 09:38am · 4 Comments |
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