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Tuesday, July 4th, 2006 11:57 PM Authorization: 381 Password: **** Encryption: text/plain Current Mood: Leaving Current Music: None, really. This entry is a followup to my PM. So, anyway, I'm practically unstable with my position in life. I have no clue what I want to do, how I want to look, and how to get there. Everyone's saying I'm too "innocent". >_< I have constant trouble about focusing in on trying to feel how someone thinks about me. It's driving me up the wall. I guess it's from so many previous years of verbal brutal torture from both public AND private schools. My entire life has been a living hell. Choices are evil. I've always been trying to figure out what I am. I'm a straight A student. I've NEVER fit in with ANYONE. Seriously. I spent my last half year of school being close to SILENT at lunch. I sat with a bunch I called my friends, yet I was also constantly rejected by them. Both with my presance and without it. There's a soap opera of my life that I avoid. Constantly. Zo knows the story... except it drifted out of my message box. Not to mention that, but Gaia has also become ... someplace I don't seem to fit. I question myself constantly. I've doubted my favorite place, I have trouble posting again, I can't bring myself to make topics... I'm lurking again. And I don't like it. So I have to take time out. Hirun Hikari** · Wed Jul 05, 2006 @ 05:11am · 3 Comments


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	If it helps you in any way, I love you (in a sisterly way, as you very well know <3). God, I can understand what you're going through. Really. I'm not just saying that. I've had issues my whole life with fitting in, never've felt like I do, I've been severly made fun of up until about 7th-8th grade. My homelife is such complete st it it's barely worth living, I have no clue where I want to go on Gaia..... Hang in there. If you ever need to talk, just contact me (Maybe if you accepted that skype request I sent you like 3 months ago? Maybe I should resend it?). I'm always available to talk, I mean always. Just keep moving forward, don't give up. Remember, I love you, so many others love you. You'll be okay. And I never say that unless I'm really and truly certain of it. Lots of love, ~Padme Offline Pixie Saylor** · Community Member · Wed Jul 05, 2006 @ 05:45am


	Aw. ]= Don't be too sad. Cause it's alright to be sad at points. But don't let it get to you too much. You're a great person and really cool and funny. :D You shouldn't be scared to post. I loved your post when I first met you...which was in that thread about all the different forums...yeah. Haha. I'm making no sense. Feel better. It'll all work out. It's funny because from when I've talked to you and stuff, I would never guess you are an almost-silent person. =] You're awesome. And ilu so don't be too sad. Offline [ Tisha Mey ] · Community Member · Wed Jul 05, 2006 @ 08:24pm


	You know there's so much I could say about how much I love ya, hun, but I just don't know if you'd take it to heart. In truth, everyone has their own personal hell to live with, and rarely does anyone overcome it. I have mine, and you have yours. All that matters now is that you can overcome it, and not let it take over your life. You know you have my support, and everyone who knows you as well's. Hirun, you're too wonderful, fantastic, and great a person to be put down by the cruel words and paranoias dealt you. I know how amazing you can be, and perhaps because of this I find it hard to think you could ever get so low. If you want to know where you belong, it's in the hearts and minds of all of the wonderful, loving people you've met here and outside the internet. It doesn't matter if we all live down the street or miles apart, as long as we share the love and consideration that we show another. It doesn't matter if you don't get along with your peers; although it'd be ideal if you'd gather a good group to be with, that isn't necessarily what it's all about. I'm sorry for everything that's bothering you, and also that I can't help you get through, but please don't let it make you bitter to the world. You're so bright and quite possibly the best friend I've ever had on the internet, even at risk of sounding corny. I can only hope that you may sort things out in due time, and without too much misery. You have my love, and Shurimpu's, and MOMs, and Chibi's, And Claire's, and everyone else's whose life you've touched. Don't -ever- forget that. ~Kiwi Offline Teh Quiouii · Community Member · Thu Jul 06, 2006 @ 03:27am

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