Reasons, everyone always wants reasons why I am the way I am. Honestly,
I would like to know myself. So I write about what hurts. what feels good.
What makes me cry andw aht makes me feel i want to know why:
I cryI'm screaming silently insideI'm happy for a moment and then lose it.,I'm free but I hold backI hate myself everytime I look in the mirror.I drown in my own self-pityI eat a tub of ice cream, then feel so much guilt I can't moveI am ashamedI hide from everything I feel more then I can take And I just relaly want to know why I am unable to be whole
Was I born with a failure unside of me that doesn't allow me to change?
I spend my days scared.
What if I never change?
What if there are no reasons at all?
What if I am the way I am forever and there is nothing I can do about it.
So I look for an answer to make the confusion go away.
Everyday I wake up searching only the hope that someday something will be found that will make the endless longing go away.
Have you ever wanted something so bad you can't breahte?
I can't breathe
yoko-kurama-6 · Mon Jul 10, 2006 @ 07:16pm · 0 Comments |