It seems that life is treating me good for a while. I was finally allowed a break from the parents and my family since they are all out at the moment.
This summer has been the most stressful ever. I've been taking summerschool for four hours a day/cleaning my house for money/four different music lessons. Not that I'm complaining...i love the stress that it gives me, but I like this once in a while.
The thought of my dream coming true(to learn as many instruments as possible and make a living off that), feels so close and yet so far. I have a perfectionist that I absolutely hate and the soft, easygoing side that I wish I had more of. Because of the need to be perfect, I feel as if I'm a goner and shouldn't even bother with music. But as my mother tells me daily, I'm stubborn and I'm stubborn enough to blow that off. I just wish I would be more confident in my self.
I haven't been able to talk to any of my friends all summer and I'm kind of lonely because of that. The people in my summerschool class are all dumbasses and they wouldn't know if a rock had hit them in the head.
I did get to see some of my friends at the Taste though(a carnival for us!!). My friend was singing and though she didn't get first, she did very well. I got to see my oldest and best friend marc, and gina(new acquintance). The rest of my friends were off and on. Still, that was a wonderful 4th of July. My church raised over seven hundred dollars from parking expenses!!!
I hope to have more time with my friends though...
 Fullmoon44 · Wed Jul 12, 2006 @ 06:07am · 0 Comments |
