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yay! I'm so glad I remembered this!
I have a question for ya'll...is it really so had to ask your girlfriend if she would like to come out with you? ESPECIALLY when the plans you JUST made are made in the stead of plans you already had with her?
It doesn't seem like it should be, but my ******** dead beat boyfriend has done it four times in the past two months.......after work (where I am now), I'm going to go talk to him about it, but it's been bothering me all day. ^_^ Luckly, I work in a self-dfense studio, so I've had all sorts of punching bags to wail on and beat the hell out of (yesssss). Hee hee - also, lucky for me, I did a 10-min. burn-out session...dunno what that is? Well, I poped in a fight CD (a CD with loud, heavy music, with a strong base beat), and set it to turn off in 10 min, 15 sec (extra 15 seconds for me to get to the floor and set. Then, I punced the bag as hard as I could, for 10 min. straight, never stopped, and always gave 100 percent. After about 3 min. my skin began to tear, but that's what I was aiming for (to make my son of a b***h boyfriend feel bad), and by the time I was done the bag was covered in blood. It's great...of course, I had to teach two kids classes right afterwards, since my boss is sick. Lol, it made it kinda tricky. Finger wounds bleed alot, as we all know, so I had to change the gauze (I used gause and tape instead of bandages) fifteen times throughout the duration of the classes (about 2 hours). The bleeding has FINALLY stopped, and I only have about 5 min, before I get to go casually make my boyfriend feel like an a**, while explaining to him ALL he needs to do is pretend he wants to invite me.......or even just TELL me that he made plans, so I don't have to find out from his ******** were going out for dinner tonight too.........and he's leaving soon for Arizona untill December 30....i can't fuking believe him...I'm so pissed off...but so crushed at the same time...i'm not in the violent stange of anger any more, now the self-mutilating/self-loathing/crying stage.
i'm sorry this is such a sorry entry ^_^'' i'll try to make them happier in the future...but this really has helped me a bit!!
Forsaken de Lacourt · Wed Dec 22, 2004 @ 02:26am · 1 Comments |
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