iv been having lots of dreams all of a sudden. i guess thats the way they happen for me. i love dreaming. everything from the day to day dreaming to nightmares to the strange to the wonderful. ill take anything that jumps into my mind while sleeping. sometimes, i think i feel more and know more in my dreams than i do in reality. i know im much happier, even in nightmares. i wish it were possible to dream forever. i wouldnt care what id be dreaming about, so long as it went on and on and wasnt exactly like our reality.
*btw, after watching pirates of the carribean 2 last night, my mind has been obsessed with toes. . . . sort of. . . . something in my dream last night was about a big toe and then when looking out of the corner of my eye, i thought the brownish button on my moms purse was a big toe sweatdrop *
anywho, those arent the only kind of dreams i like. i mean, you cant possibly forget about daydreams! iv spent entire days and nights just making up stories and being sucked into my own daydreams. iv gotten so sucked into them that i dont even realize iv been thinking anything at all. in fact, sometimes its like watching a good anime, you just kind of blank and the next thing you know youre crying cuz someone died or laughing because someone did something really stupid. its great.
its been a while since iv been able to daydream properly, and now that its getting closer and closer to the school year, im getting really stressed out and am not allowing myself enough time in solitude to daydream like i used to. if i could just do my ap work and get it all done, id have plenty of time and be mostly stress free. but i just cant find anything that i think would work well for my projects.
********!! i just realized, someone has been in my room and stole the chair that i had my stuff set up on to do my ap thing. i had started that one and everything. and then i gave up on it for a while cuz i couldnt get the angles right. but they must have stolen it back gonk o well. . . . ill just hafta do something else. . . . cuz i dont feel like trying to get it set up again and bla bla bla. . . . .
anywho, i have some tiny ideas for stories in my head. . . . i could probably connect some of them together with a story i had going a year or two ago. . . . but its been so long, im having trouble remember all about that story. i just remember tiny little things.
whats sad is that i cant write any of it down. if i start writing, i forget it all or just get out of the daydream mode. and if im daydreaming, i tend to space a ton so there is no way i could write anything down. another sad thing is that in most cases i dont know what any of the characters look like. i might get general ideas of a few characters but thats about it. yet somehow i manage to see all of it going off in my head as though it were a movie. its weird. you ever been staring at a wall and at a person running through the halls of a castle in the middle of the night at the same time? or typing and seeing someone traveling through a forest or up a mountain? or anything like that? and most of the time i dont even realize im doing it.
ever just be staring off and suddenly you wonder if youve been breathing or not? sweatdrop oi, anywho, this is getting long. . . . and i dont feel like botherin with this anymore. . . . so, now i must decide. . . . back to anime on youtube or to try to daydream or to go downstairs and risk being around the "family" ????
Unni Ineo · Mon Aug 07, 2006 @ 02:17am · 2 Comments |