(yeah, it's a lot, it over it)
She started to act way diffrent. Miss soccer games, not spend time with me, becoming a b***h, etc. And she and my mom were always fighting, enough to drive anyone mad. Untill one afternoon, I was on my way home (FYI:she was in high school and I was in middle at the time) I heard my other older brother and her screaming and yelling at my mom. I tried calling my friend for some comfort and I even left the house, my friend wasn't home so I had no one to comfort me. ********... I was so alone that day. Even my ex bf boyfriend couldn't help me. Yeah, I was that ******** up. Anyway, My mom slapped my sister and kicked her out of the house. I was being the stupid a**, as I am, and when no one was looking I tried to kill myself. I couldn't bare the fact that I was going to lose my best friend in the whole ******** world, The only one who understands me, the only one who I can mess around with, My sister was my best friend!....but, I was dead wrong.
I wasn't able to do kill myself, my little brother saw me in tears. Instead I starting to cut myself. A few months later I went to rehab, for other reason as well. My sister and mom got along for a while. Then my sister, who lived with us again, wasn't able to see her "boyfriend" SO, she says she "takes me out, like to the mall and such JUST so we could hang out" But instead she would just take me then leave me somewhere and go hang out with her boyfriend and screw around and s**t as I was behind them from a far. I hate her for that, and she still hasn't said "sorry to me"
I ******** hate her but the memories of us as "best friends" Still get me, so... I have to hold back the tears and put on fake smiles. I mean... She hasn't changed. She still rapes me, well, she just comes out of no where, tackles me down and starts humpping me. O_O gonk but... I don't know... I want to slap her but I also wanna cry in her arms. She ******** knows me like a book... But still... I feel alone again... I think I might start cutting again...
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