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If you haven't recieved this in the mail. Here it is...and then some

Hey everyone, terribly sorry I haven't been around. Again. I really am trying to get access to a computer, but its rather hard now. I just got over my flu, and finished my big pile of make up work. Along with that, after doing AP essays and sort, my computer surfew is up so I have to get to bed. However, i'm going to try and come online at least once a week at a minimum. I'm sorry if some of you think i'm neglecting you [you know who you are]..I am truely and deeply sorry. But i love you all, my friends are everything to me. Most of you on my friendslist I feel like i've known for a lifetime. So just in case I'm not able to talk to you due to my time difference, i just want you to know. Thanks for everything. and being there for me through my stage of need. I appriciate it more then anything. Your friendships are a true treasure that I will for ever cherish with me until the end of my days. I heart you guys. ^_^

Oh yeah, in october i probibly won't be on at all. Why? I'll be moving off the little rock i love so much [hawaii] to napa valley cry




...ih yes and of course, i'll be moving when i have finally found that person that makes me feel special know matter what. Doesn't that just figure. My parents are getting a divorce, my older brother has never liked me because i'm exactly likehim. Exact same oppurtunities, only i'm not screwing mines up. My sister in law is a witch...and it bites.. I've finally gained the respect of my new varsity volleyball team members. I've come to terms with my previous volleyball team members, we're all good in the hood. The duration that i'll be in napa i'm missing my soccer season with my best friedns in the world..along with our all star team together again for the last time, ever. There going to dominate, and hopefully take states. I know they can. I'm going to miss it, i'm going to miss them. Most of all, i'm going to miss him. He's finally the guy i think is for me. I get along with him, we share som many cab and random moments you can write a book. heck you can write a triligy. My friends aprove, which is a big step for them. The other guy i liked, they refused to acknowledge, and i discovered it was for a reason. But this guy, this guy, he's my kind of perfect. He has everything i've ever wanted in a guy. Inside and out. He's got the smarts, personality, and the looks. He's an all around 10 in my book. Not to mention the one guy i've ever said, i like you, to before they said it to me...which is major with me..because i'm shy like that... Now i'm going to have to say good bye. When i've waited so for him to notice me, then meet me, then talk to me..then of course like me..now things are pulling together for once.. i thought they were going to go my way...but i was wrong again..one thing i'm always right about, being wrong.

..i really dislike the fact that i like him so much..its not nomral for me.. he's not even the type i thought i'd go for..not that i have a type..its just..he seemed so different on the outside. he seemed like he was only looks..buthe's so much more then that. he's like a puzzle that i've finally figured out. A game that i could never beat the last level on until now. .. how am i suposed to say bye to the person i think is the one... is it possible..

..well..it will be soon.. it'll have to be.. i'll be in napa, he'll be on kauai still.. i'll be going to some high end school in salsalita, while he'll be going to the best school in my book. kauai high...