It's been 19 years on here,
somehow, i'm a grown woman in her thirties still enjoying gaia online.
july will make nineteen years at least.
the only reason i'm even making a journal entry is because i'm trying to boost my dailies on gaia.
for one reason or another i've become super enamoured with being here again.
even if it's just lurking around the forums and selling old useless items on marketplace. it just feels like something i recognize. like something i can latch onto for a moment and have some sort of semblance of who i was as a child.
being an adult and a business owner is hard.
everything feels heavy as i try to take things on one day at a time.
i feel like that cliche where i've blinked a couple times and already i'm thirty telling myself i don't feel old as i start to notice silver hairs coming from my head.
everything is coming together in a way that i never imagined it would, and i'm the functioning adult i never imagined myself as or even could comprehend myself surviving to.
friends have come and gone, my family is dispersing into all walks of life and some death, there have been dozens of birthdays and holidays and just joyful days inbetween. There have been ocean views, and mountains hiked, and sights seen. I have been through many life experiences that have lead me to looking and maybe even sounding different.
but here we are,
i'm grown, but i haven't outgrown gaia.
something aside from my mind has stayed the same.
something aside from my own thoughts, still feels like home.
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