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So I have new glasses, whee!!

and i have a job, wheee!!

and I have to go back to school, whheeee-wait WHAT?!?! burning_eyes

aaaanyway, last night, i was half asleep, more on the awake side, so i geuss you could say i was 51 percent awake, 49 percent asleep, but I had this odd dream.

being mostly awake, I could only terminate the dream and wake up from it, but being half asleep, I could not control or think about what i was doing, so it just happened.

Part 1)

I think I may have been playing to much of the Battlefield 2: Modern Combat online demo. In case you didn't know, BF2 is a First Person war shooter. In the demo it is Chinese vs. Americans. It looks sort of realistic, but not too at all, and there is no blood, yet in the dream...I didn't like it...
I was a character this time, a sniper like I usually pic, and I was getting ready to initiate an artillary strike on a bunch of enemies, when a few jumped down these ramps and started attacking me. Now, IRL, I enjoy pwning the n00bs, but me thinking this is the real world (and it actually feeling like it is the real world, heat from damaged trucks and evreything), I quickly hated myself and felt scared after terminating them with a silenced pistol. I feared I would scream, it was that horrible, so I terminated that dream, woke up for 5 seconds, and fell asleep, which is when the next dream occured.

2) this is a bit more...modern.... If you wanna call it that. This takes place at this age, with my current friends, well, at least the ones I barely see anymore D:. This means a bunch of my McKinley friends. Now, I asked myself this question before the first dream: "Does it count as pornography if I don't use it for pornographic reasons?". Lately I feel the urge to draw, and I don't see the need to put clothes on people yet, as I dont find myself that good. I've been meaning to get a new sketchbook, a huge mirror, a camera, maybe a little mannequin, and just borrow or find some lightcore porn (as art books with nudism costs more and porn is only slightly less demeaning) so i can work on the human body so I can find a style that I like. Well anyway, after this dream, the answer: "I have NO freakin' clue"...

Seriously, it was ODD. One of the things on my list i forgot to mention was "a few really good friends that have no problem being nude.", and well.....*le sigh* this dream was that... It involved a video camera, my friends, and random places. Of course, I did draw them, and a few of my other artist friends drew as well, so it was kind of like a summit of the teenage drawers/drawn xd , but things got wierd quick, fast, and in a hurry. I'm not sure where we were, or why they asked me to videotape it (as a moving person is not a good doll to draw, maybe it was a puctre taking / video recording video camera), but we went to random places, somewhere in one of our neighborhoods, including bedrooms and crap, and i video taped different poses. Now, it wasn't only females, so don't think I'm pervy, and I'm not sure what happened, but it made me terminate that one. To tell the truth, I have no problem being nude for art, science, or just to be. Clothes are insignifigant (unless to keep warm, or for keeping cool in summer IE by using gel or cooling beads) and are stupid otherwise (ooh, protester Luay XD WOOOO!!). It is sad that people relate nudity (as well as everything else...I'm lookin' at YOU, shoe sizes!) to sex, and even more sad that nudity is Taboo because of that. I'm not making a big deal out of it, saying we should burn every piece of clothing we wear (BTW, i'll keep my shoes on if I go outside neutral ), but the question should really be: What classifies pornography (oh dear, I'm ranting again. Well, it's my journal, so who cares? XDD)? It shouldn't be nudity, I believe it should be the act(s) of sex and/or sexual harrasment (don't ask, I know some people who want concensual rape...). Walking around in the buff shouldn't be enough to get a "Sex offender" label tattooed on your forehead. I understand if you go around flashing to grammas and young chilluns in the sandbox or out for ice cream with papa or mama, but simply walking? Bah, gimme that lawsuit.

Aaaan-E-Way, I'll wait to buy a new sketchbook and I'm sure one of my really good friends will let me use her, and I'll just use myself, but Only two bodytypes (and similar, at that) aren't really enough. I'll just use the imagination given to me to make out the rest (unless someone wants to help XD). On to the next dream!!!

3) Ok, so I've always pictured snakes and stuff as being able to turn into monsters, and that's JUST what happened in this dream! (BTW, I'm fully asleep in this one, so I can control some things that happen inside, but I can't wake up until it's finished or until I have to.) So, my mom sees this huge rattle snake in the yard next to us (not sure why,as we don't have NAY snake types here in the city, lest your willin to go to the zoo), and she tells me to get a coil of fence link She plans on getting the snake to bite it, get it trapped, and burn/toss it in the garbage...I don't know. Either way, this snake wasn't idle, and it began to attack. I ran to the garage, and while I was in there, it was poised to strike....at the garage door! I quickly ran past it and had to jump to avoid it's huge fangs. As I ran, I tried to toss the chain, but it turned out that the snake had bit it off, so only a few squares was tossed to mymom. The snake was now chasing me, and this turned into a game of "avoid the warthog". In "ATW", a person in a car (say Halo 2 or BF2) tries to run you over and your job is to keep dodging and survive while the run you in circles. I have used grenades and things to destroy the vehicle (yesterday, I used a laser target on a vehicle and jumped in circles on purpose so that my missle coming from the sky would be sure to hit. Then, while jumping and stuff, I started shooting at him to make it seem like he was really gonna get me. That n00b never saw it coming XD). Well, I did a jump as soon as it tried to strike my leg, so I easily distanced myself from it, ran to the garage as fast as I could, grabbed a lawn chair, and as soon as I turned around, it tried to strike me, but i shoved the chair in it's mouth. The lawn chair went in, the snake flew back a bit, and then it POPed open the snake! It was odd, though, because the snake's skin was like a fleshy cocoon, in that a monster, that looked like the snake, with two arms, two legs and walked upright came out, but was stuck, tangled in the lawn chair/ rough snake skin entrapment. i found a crowbar, which, for some reason, was not working as i bashed it over the head, but maybe I was just too tired. Mom, who had been watching the whole thing and yelling to watch out, grabbed the crowbar and gave it a Coup De Gras in the skull. It was a good victory, and i wasn't afraid at all like the BF dream (possibly because, in this case, life seemed less real).

After that, I woke up, and due to the 2nd dream, as usualy if I have a dream or thought like that, i felt a need to do something to get my mind off of it or i feel i have a need to repay something.... So today, i will actually do some art, not be on Gaia that much, run in my local parks, go to the farmer's market, do my bro's laundry (as part of our agreement that I do his laundry and he pays the cell phone bill), and maybe do something else.

OH! And I'm calling up to Art Mart, I have some bug mirrors and a video camera already, now all I need is a sketchbook...a good sketchbook XD