Daniel and I have finally broken up. Hopefully things between us won't change to much. I don't plan on leaving him alone. He has way to many enemies... More than I thought. I recently learned someone is spreading rumors about Daniel, me and Josh to apparently and it's pissing me off. Daniel says he we broke up caz "you believe rumors" He is wrong about such. The thing is I suspected it first. I cried about it a lot. I mean he kept refusing to see me and the time I asked to go see him he refused that to. What was I supposed to think. Then when school started back he didn't talk to me. He would touch me or anything. I thought he found some other chick and was trying to make me dump him. So I didn't believe rumors really I believe what I thought was happening. I still don't know for sure if he was cheating on me. He himself has not told me yes or no directly and that bothers me. It makes me easily get pissed off at him.
Anyways now I guess I am gonna try for a weird type of friendship to keep him protected until I decided I want him hurt. He is mine to hurt or protect period. I was the one who had to go through everything that happened. I was the one he was a complete a*****e to. I was the one ignored and hurt and left crying. Not these other people. If Daniel gets hurt it is my choice. MINE. I will never forgive Daniel for being an a*****e and a jackass and just plain treating me like s**t. But unlike him I am not an a*****e and I will only see him hurt for something he has actually done. Not rumors, I need proof. Which is why I am currently trying to find out exactly who he did or did not cheat on me with and whom is or is not started this damn rumors. Caz if he didn't cheat on me then some other a*****e cause me to say things I would have never have said to Daniel.
I have not decided wether I plan on still flirting with Daniel at school... though I know if I do I'm get in trouble. Mainly with Brittany, Josh and Lydia. And probably Shannon too but she can't really do s**t to me. I don't know... I like to flirt and I flirt a lot. So why should I stop just cause we broke up? Not like I will go back to him. He is an a*****e. I don't want an a*****e for a boyfriend. But a cute guy for a pet that in my book is ok I guess.
 XeniaSierra · Sat Aug 19, 2006 @ 08:19pm · 3 Comments |
