OMG!
It's really done! It's over. And I can't stand it!!! I want her back but I can't let her know that. It'll just make things worse. I can't stand to think about it but I can't help it. I loved her! And now she's really really gone. So qickly to move on to another guy, so suddenly turning to another love. How can any one do that? Maybe she didn't really feel the way I did. Maybe she didn't know how much I really cared. Maybe she didn't understand that every singly word every letter I tyed was from my heart. i know that sounds a bit stupid but I don't care. I told her she couldn't read this any more because I dont' want her to know how I really feel. She thinks I'm working to get over her. But I can't let that go. I love her sooo much! On a scale of 1-10... It isn't even a friggen number ... it's the letter B! that's how much.
Wait. That doesn't make sense but what ever. It works right. I mean who's really going to sit there and read my problems... the only person that would have left me because of a stupid mistake! it's all my fault. I know I'll make it through but I've lost somethign... Not jsut her, not jsut pride or .. what ever. Ive lost hope in love. I personally don't think I'll ever fall in love agian. I mean... how can. Love is forever and I'm not willing to share Her love with ANY ONE else. I gave her my love and now she's trying to get me to take it back. I can't do that! I need her to know but she can't know! I'll just keep posting stuff here as it comes to me.
 Protector of the States · Sat Aug 26, 2006 @ 02:52am · 0 Comments |
