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I'm a girl and In real life have no emotions, unless I am pissed off at someone. Which is kind of my only emotion. I have this friend who we shall call C and another called B. C knows that I like B But doesn't care. I think she has had bout three to four boyfriends in the past three months.

B is my master and keeps calling me on my phone every night. I gave C his phone number because she wanted it and she has been making out with him. Now usually this wouldn't piss me off, but.....a few nights ago before he made out with her he wanted me to be his girlslavestressfriend. Which means Girlfriend, slave, mistress, and friend. So I said sure.

The next day, I think, He was making out with her, she pushed herself on him. He went with it. He has no spine at all, or maybe he does and just thinks that all girls are fine with being toys. My friends saw the posts and now want me to ditch him and I think C But I'm not sure.I will have to put them bith off my friends list if they keep doing that though.

Especially C She always thinks she can get what she wants. After I saw the making out posts I told him that I don't want to be his girlslavestressfriend, scince he is going to be kissing girls at the hotel and junk. So instead it should just stay slavefriend. I'm not a good mistress so that should be taken out too. Last night though, HE WAS BEING STUPID!!!!

He should know that I don't want to feel like he has feelings for me, but he did it anyways! I told him good night, and he said he wanted a kiss. I didn't want to give him one because I was too tired and pissed at my mom. Here is how this went:

B: I want a kiss

Me: So?

B: Gimme a kiss.

Me: Why should I, you can wait till tomorrow..

B: Please, I want a kiss.

Me: Tell me why you want one and then I will kiss you.

B: I can't.....

((Silence for a few minutes))

Me: Just say that you want one and need one, thats the only reason...

B: Not the only reason...

Me: Then whats the other reason?

B: I....I.....I.....Ugh....I...

((Silence))

Me: I know you don't have another reason.....

B: Please can I have one?

Me: Just say why...

B: Cause I want one and need one from you.

Me: You don't need one from me..... you can get one from one of your other slaves tomorrow *Sigh* "Kisses on the forehead" There.

B: I want one from you though, I feel like I need one...*Makes kissing noise*

I think more happened but I can't remember. Those were the big points of the conversation though. I told him what I wanted to hear and he added, "from you", into it. I don't want to hear that! He sounded sad when I hung the phone up though. But I'm sure it was just his illness. He has been sick for the past week, I think. I have beengetting calls from him everyday, so I know the sound of his voice.

I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!!! gonk HE IS ACTING LIKE HE IS IN MORE PAIN THAN ME!!! Maybe he just has an illness that makes him like that, I don't know.....but he shouldn't make me feel bad, I feel bad enough every day when my mom steals my cash and I have to tell my dad about it. *Sigh* Oh well....guess I am just the person that gets used when needed and then tossed away when something better comes along.