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i hate college, i hate growning up, i wish high school had never ended and the new school year hasn't even started yet. i hate long distance, i hate new people, i hate being sad and depressed and lonely and missing people. i hate not being good enough, being jealous, being not being wanted over others...
i hate having justin away.
i hate how my parents aren't talking to each other, how my brothers are alcoholics at such early ages, i hate never being able to be honest with others and keeping my feelings in.
i got my job, and what else? i don't wanna cry anymore.
i hate pretty girls who like theatre and whos favorite bands are metallica, who are sensual and sexual, and spontanous, and perfect.
i hate how no one reads my journal i hate being fat (but thats gonna change) i hate not being able to put my foot down and say 'No' i hate being away
i hate some of the turns i have taken in my life, but love some of the causes, i hate it when important things are no longer 5-20 minutes away by car. i hate being bored and not knowing what to do with my self.
i color and type to make me happy, but thats not gonna fix everything. but i'll tell you now, it sure is helping, getting this all out.
I have work in less than two hours...i need to shower, dress, and hope my day gets better. I love my job, its makes me happy. my co-workers are some of the best people on the planet, the customers can make me smile, and i can do my job well.
"I rant, I sing, I cry, I love, I feel, I miss, I breathe, I Live."
.......a new one to add to my list is: I hate
...yeah, can you tell i'm not having a good day?
but i'll get better, you gotta beleive that everything will be okay, things work out, i know they do... i just got to get thru all of this first.....
and i still have to get my tattoo.
Riyu_Nailo · Thu Aug 31, 2006 @ 07:20pm · 0 Comments |
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