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Since thursday night, I've been pretty 'eh. Thursday was fun. Me, Jess, Amanda and Rik. It was amazing. Hanging out with anyone from six flags always makes me happy.
When I got home from the mall, things went downhill. Mom demanded I cook dinner. I wouldnt have minded if I wasn't so tired, and if it wasn't hamburger helper. Beef noodle hamburger helper. Every time she gets the stuff, its either that or beef stroganaf. and they taste the same. So I was a little pissy about that.
Then I went online and talked to Kirk. Kirk was being an but munch, talking about depressive stuff, and it made me cry. He does this to me, and I hate it so much. One minnute, we'll be all happy, talking about one thing or another, then we'll be talking about how he doesn't love me and blah blah blah. Just kind of ******** with my head for no reason.
Jim made me feel better though. He cheered me up.
then new years eve. I invited kirk, he didnt' have anything better to do. So for awhile, it was me, jess, amanda, and kirk. Kirk went home at eleven. He was being an a*****e again. Jess and amanda agree. He was being controlling, and an a*****e. All I want is a little affection. I cant even hold his hand without him telling me not to.
After kirk left, amanda and jess kept on telling me I should dump him. Part of me is sick of the pain, and tells me I can do better. Part of me says I cant do better, because I'm ugly, i'm a horrible person, and this that and the other thing, and that I should be greatful to have kirk.
I'm happy to have kirk, but I'm sick of the way he treats me some times.
But kirk is the only issue of the new year. Then there is the confeti.
Jess brought glitter confeti. We threw it. We cleaned most of it up, we stoped at two AM to get some sleep. We woke up, took some time to kinda wake up, but my mom came downstairs and flipped out. she screamed at us for a good ten minnutes, then insisted that we clean it all right then and there, and that she would help us. Jess went home because she had to, and amanda stayed and helped me clean.
I'm grounded for two weeks because I threw confeti. La-de-fricken-da. I'm starting to really hate my family.
Today I've been sitting around the house. Dad had to restore the computer. I had to redownload my messengers (still working on yahoo's)
I'm just in a bit of a slump. Probably will stay in it untill I'm off punishment.
 Noodletwin · Sun Jan 02, 2005 @ 09:40pm · 1 Comments |
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