Its Texas homecoming day. Michael is camping or somewhere so he doesnt have to go and i am sitting here typing...what the crap. I wish i had gone to the dances freshman year... I hate being so far away. Sometimes...i wish that all of this had been different. What if it was different? Im so sad. I've started drawing...its something to keep my mind off of michael, but after im done thoughts always come back. I cant really sleep. He's always on my mind. I really need to stop this. Am i too obsessive? I think i am...man...i need to stop this. Well...i have homework...so I guess that can do that to keep my mind from thinking of him or the dance im missing. I dont care about my dance i have here. This crappy school has nothing that i want. Nothing that my old school had. No orchestra, No colorguard, No German, No letter jackets, No actual buildings...they have freaking portables for offices!! And this isnt even the worst school. I dread the day that someone asks me to a dance or something. i dont even know where the dances are going to be. Where could they be held? Outside? No, no! Im not going to go. Oh god...highschool as of now...is going to be hell. But I have something to look foward to. Michael might come for Thanksgiving, and if not, then im going there for the summer. I AM GOING and there is nothing my parents can do about it. I love Michael so much ^^ *sigh* ok...ill end this here.
Elinea · Sat Oct 02, 2004 @ 06:25pm · 0 Comments |