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I've been put on this earth as a demon, i'm to kill, hurt, destroy, but I can't, or at least I don't want to. Within this heart is immeasureable darkness, put your hand their you feel no heartbeat, put your ear there you hear nothing, you try to touch it with your heart and become lost.
I've caused so much harm, so much pain, so much destruction, I don't know what to do anymore, do I let my demon-half control? Or my human-half? It should be my human-half, but I want what the demon wants so bad.
The last feather on my wing has fallen, but no one was there to catch me, I fell, still falling, it's going to hurt, but it's for the best. I deserve my deliverence, it's my sin. I'm a Demon, nothing more, hate me, fear me, it's the right thing.
I've learned to love, i've learned to care, but i've learned anger, hate, envy, and greed. Understand, i'm a bad person, a demon, the blood of my closest friends, and my loved ones stain my hands, I can't wash it off, did you hear their screams? Did my love one care, do you think? Do you know if I matter? Do you know if darkness hurts so much?
Cast me aside, it's right, cast me down, it's just, tear me asunder, i've sinned, i've caused pain, this path I walk is only doomed to bring you down. I ask for my deliverence, my demon, my sin, my suicide. I don't think a Demon and an Angel are meant to be, no matter how much they love, the Demon is doomed to cause the Angel pain, cause her to die.
I ask you now, i've lost my heart, my soul is shattered, i'm lost, empty, unsure, alone, I don't know what to do, but I ask you, are you still trying to follow me? How far will you go? Do I really matter? I'm a really worth it?
I love you, I came here for you. Even though i'm stumbling in this darkness, i'm still going there for you, giving you my life. But now, you're not by my side, i'm not by yours, you don't even notice when I fall behind. You said you'd be there when I fall, you'd catch me, i'm falling now, where's your hand? It's nowhere in sight.
I'm walking this path called life, you aren't next to me, you've made your choice, you've chosen that instead of me. Do I have a place in your heart? If I do, where? Because I don't see it anywhere.
That hate, that anger, it's burned into my mind, you say you still love me, are you lying? If you cared, then why did you say whatever? Why'd you crush my heart when I gave it to you?
Are you there? Because I can't feel you anymore. Did you really love me? How can you not hate who I am? I'm terrible.
I ask this once and only once, why'd you chose that over me? Why did you risk losing me for that, if I meant that much to you? Are you still there? Because i'm feeling what's next to me and you're not there, you've left me behind again.
Riehade · Sat Sep 09, 2006 @ 04:32am · 10 Comments |
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