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Okay now I know why I'm here at George Fox. It was never about me it was about others. I am always having to save people..it gets annoying and its starting to drive me crazy. Especially when I get these strangers that come up to me and pout out all their troubles. What's going on here? Why does everyone come to me? I try my best to help them but I guess listening is far better than words. I don't mind if people come to me to talk about things they can't tell others. I've never told anyone's secret not once. If there's something going on that's dangerous sure I'll intervene and tell someone who can help but rarely does that happen.I guess my only reason for being here at college was to help people to help people find what they are looking for. But right now it seems that I'm looking and I can't find my way out. I keep trying to have a spiritual relationship with God but somehow I feel that he wants me to look for others to find people that need a hand. That's what I promised to do way back when I became a Christian. And *sigh* it looks like he's called me on it. Now I am paying for my promise. Hmm..and note: I was not always as nice as I am now. In fact I hated people enough to where I remained siletn from speaking with them for about 9 months. Some people can be alone with themselves and be fine I am one of those people..
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