"....i just want to make my dream come true: be a rocker/metal guitarrist TOT from a very famous band......and i'll NEVER =( do that..........my parents dont like the fact that im like...goth >>...or dark...... they tell me im crazy and stuff.....sometimes, they make me cry...(of course in silence and alone)...and i just hate my brothers (dont ask who) they keep telling me offensive stuff to me...i cant stand it ANYMORE!! ...i feel that no one understands me....everyone keeps telling me im wrong or...they ignore me.....................ppl always do that! why they keep abusing from me in that ways? maybe..when im 18...and if i make my dream come true...i'll never return to this land (mexico).......and if i do that, then im not going to my home or anything like that..mmm---they'll miss me....(i dont think so)......but, my loneliness is going to kill me.......anyways...i g2g.....take care... ..i dont feel so good... " -from my last post-
Damn...i cant help it anymore.......i have no reason for living, i got tired of waiting...and now the time has finally come.... every tear that i drop...is because of the world.....they really treat me like crap..there are only a few ppl that actually care about me...and i can count them only with 1 hand (and i hope that he's reading this..u know who...).....i hate distance, if only i..........oh just forget that...and yes, today i saw a program about punks, metal guys & goth guys and o,o i liked the stuff that they were chatting about....>>, i guess they are the only one that understand us........cuz im dying because of love...........aaaaaa!! T.T i got tired of living..i find everything boring....i g2g i got sick yesterday...and got an injection....imagine...and with this emotional pain..i cant stand it...anymore....today when no one was at home i got a knife...and actually tried to cut my veins or something like that but....i couldnt...cuz many ppl will feel pain in their hearts and i just hate that......i wish i could die..protecting someone...why? iono..but thats what i want...bye...
~"I'll die only if that's what you really wish for"~
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