Frostbitten fingers gently tapping on keys that barely respond
The taste of smoke still in my mouth,
Fragrant like the cancer that consumes me
Silently condemning the blinking cursor on the empty screen before me,
Taunting me in the ways words could never satisfy
Is this really happy? I wonder aloud…
Is that all there is to living, taking up a space you don’t deserve to occupy?
Darkness falls on me, blanketing my vision
Eyes narrow in on the one thing that keeps me sane…
But how long can one go on just existing?
Can you honestly live your life for others?
Wishing there was rain…
Yearning for the sky to open up and swallow it all,
All the meaningless s**t my life has turned into these days.
I need a release, something substantial to turn my nights back into days
To bring the sun back into alignment once more
What can be done?
Who’s to save me from myself?
Lookin around this room, filled with you and all that you are…
Why did I pawn myself off like an old ring?
I’m not your burden, yet you gladly carry me…
And what do I have to offer you?
Nothing…
Nothing but the strong urge to blurt out things you’re not ready to hear
But will you ever be?
When you look at me, is it with the same adoration I feel for you?
Is it merely disgust in disguise?
Why would you care what happens to me when I don’t even care?
I’m in deep, and you’re the only one who wants to save me…
Even if you weren’t, I know I’d still be here…
Till the day you wake up and realize that you’re better than what I’ve got,
I’ll still be right here…
I’ll hold your hand, cause it’s the only hand I’ve been dealt.
Thank you, for being the only person I need.
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