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All my life I've been screamed at... told "my life was Amazing!" Your Ungratful!" and s**t like that... I'm so ******** sick of it! If you want to crittiziz my life LOOK ON THE ******** INSIDE!!! Go behind the fake smiles go behind the lies!
I've almost died so many time... By Accident! what does that mean? is some force telling me to just let myself go? Doesn't this force know I couldn't...
I know my life could be worse my mom could have stayed with my dad and I could have been hit my whole life... I could have been raped, twice... I could have been alot of things! but that doesn't forgive the fact I've gone homeless foodless moneyless... loveless... friendless! I never am exepted! you think I could get a ******** breack every now and again... which now it has been okay but that's not for me! every one think's my mom is cooler then me (I'm going to leave out the resons why stare ) and now they respect me for her! not for me they still make fun of me call me Gillesbian and s**t behind my back! I could have been alot of things... But ******** I'm not! I donno... sometimes I wish that moment I stoped breathing when I was 7 instend of that medicen saving me... I wish I would have stayed not breathing... maybe the world would have been better off not to have an ungrateful lazy pig living in the world...
what ever it's not like any one READ'S or CARES what the ******** I put in here...