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OMG i dont think my dpressed state will be going away for a wile. cry

theres soo much bullshit going on scream . i hate school. but im not one of those people that say that just to get through the day, i mean if my mum and dad said i could pack up and go home i would do it with out hesitating.
im not made for the academics sad ......it seems as if im failing at everything. i try and work but even when i do it allways turns out relly bad burning_eyes . my graphics is goin absolutly down hill. ive totally lost interest in it. its kinda sad kause i used to really like it. my wood wurk is on the brink of implosion im just keeping it together in that class, the techa just makes me wana walk out of class. evil burning_eyes crying

English is all right i jus have a ton of trouble writing essays. Maths is really depressing crying . i spend like a term and a hlaf on this accounting subject (yes i do accounting in maths) and it come to the test a i forget the ******** lot its like why the ******** did i study this s**t when im jus gona ******** forget anywyas. burning_eyes cry sad stressed scream

sorry for the swearing jus the more i right the more i got depressed but the more dpression i release....if you get me. confused sad

it feels like everything im doing or participating in is falling apart crying ...my school work, my sport, my drawing is getting shitier which explains why i havent posted anythin on my profile in a wile stare . everyone at this ******** school is getting more up themselve burning_eyes , part from my friends. i havent spoken to any of my friends back home in ages my parents are going nuts at me scarring me bout what im going to do for a job next year. the army are telling me that i most probably wont get into my apprenticship cause of asthma im doing ******** plumbing im not running ******** 20 miles every ******** day c'mon give me a break.....for once burning_eyes burning_eyes burning_eyes burning_eyes burning_eyes burning_eyes burning_eyes burning_eyes burning_eyes burning_eyes burning_eyes burning_eyes burning_eyes burning_eyes burning_eyes free txtin has run out, i pridict i wont be seeing my GF for a wile crying ......btw thanks for a frigin awesome weekend heart

oh god that felt good to get out. neutral now all i need is to bash a few drums lol lol btw i put the bass pedal through the bass skin. for all you non drumas out there that means my foot punched a pad through a big sheet of plastic material rofl cool hahahaha i was going hard had a mean as jam.
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well now that ive let off some steam i think ill go now and attempt homwurk rolleyes and hope that it helps lol.............hope rolleyes