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Bad F*ing choices 1. Broke up with the first guy I really loved all because I was being pressured by a Bd. 2. Dated the B**d 3. started dating cause I was depressed. 4. took people into my heart that will break it too soon. 5. Got too depressed. 6. Thinks of suicide. 7. Dreams of suicide. 8. Wishes for death. 9. Can't think of reasons to live. 10. Might have gotten pregnant. 11. screwed someone out of depression. 12. didn't spend enough time with little bro. 13. wastes money on friends that will never remember. 14. Saddned too many people. 15. Tried to beleive I was full of worth. 16. Tried to fit in. 17. Deepened my sorrow. 18. Made mother sad. 19. didn't get to know mother's side of the family. 20. Didn't go to Mexico to visit relatives. 21. cried for no reason when talking to lost love. 22. Didn't wait to be asked out by someone who really might have liked me. 23. Take care of my friends instead of myself way too much. 24. Gave hope to people that have no hope. 25. Helped those who didn't deserve help. 26. loved the wrong people. 27. hated the wrong people. 28. didn't run away soon enough. 29. didn't think before I talked. 30. Didn't say sorry enough. 31. Didn't say thank you enough. 32. never releived myself from the pain I am in. 33. Never will take away the pain I am in. Reality is, that we all die someday and shouldn't speed it up. If we do, then we won't find our true way in life. If someone kills you or you die from something other than yourself, then no matter what you beleive in, you will find a place where you will have no pain. You will find a place where everyone you knew and know is happy. You will find you peace. If I killed myself than I wouldn't be at peace, I would be thinking of those who I left behind. I would think of all the people that might have cared. I will be a restless soul. So I waon't die untill the time has come for me to die. But I will die, if a friend or loved one needs me to die.

Posted by: ~Major_Mule-32~ Mon Nov 06, 2006 @ 02:28am

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Commented on: Mon Nov 06, 2006 @ 02:42am


	Wow.... Maranda.... Out of all your journal entries.... This one... This is... Sad... And true... Reading this, I didn't know you wne t through this much.. I just wish I was there to give you a hug and try to help you feel better.

Commented on: Mon Nov 06, 2006 @ 02:45am


	Thanks. But it wouldn't help. I would just pretend I did. I hate pretending in order to make people happy...

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Commented on: Mon Nov 06, 2006 @ 03:40am


	OMG sar im so sorry why didnt you tell me i didnt know half of this stuff wow im so sorry i wish andy and i could help wow im going to my corner to cry for you then im going to hug you next time i se you crying crying emo

Commented on: Mon Nov 06, 2006 @ 02:09pm


	I'm already crying in my dark little corner, nice to know that there is another peerson out there doing the same thing. Thanks

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Commented on: Mon Nov 06, 2006 @ 04:36pm


	Hey luv, I know how you feel. If you ever want to just come and talk to me about things, feel free ok? I've been through a few of the same things you have, so don't hesitate if you need someone to talk to. Its not good just to keep things locked in. Start taking care of yourself more hon, honestly, I'm sure we wouldn't care if you don't 'take care' of us as much. The important thing to us is that YOU'RE truly and surely happy, ok love? heart heart heart

Commented on: Mon Nov 06, 2006 @ 11:04pm


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Commented on: Mon Nov 06, 2006 @ 11:11pm


	1. thank you erin...and whats up with you talking like you are from luisianna? 2. why are you acting like that raul? you don't need to feel...umm...embarrased?

Commented on: Mon Nov 06, 2006 @ 11:15pm


	Those are many of good reasons to hate life, but i strongly think that your making hte right chocie by living. When someone kills themselves, it makes nothjing better, and ive been in many of the situations that you have stated above, and now that im through them, i understand why they happened. So keep living, do it not for those you love, in my opinion, do it for the one that you will want to live forever with.

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Commented on: Mon Nov 06, 2006 @ 11:23pm


	I can't think of living forever for someone, unless they need me to. But like I said, someday a friend or loved one might need me to die, so I will wait. Be it a medical surgery type of thing, or just to save thier life. I will die for them. And if I need to live for them then so be it. I would rather live knowing that someone is happy, than die, knowing that it helped no one.

Commented on: Mon Nov 06, 2006 @ 11:44pm


	I don't know what to say. But, I will try to be a better person by trying not to hurt somebody phsicaly or mentally. But just remeber that I will always be there for you. No matter what the situtation is. I will try anything to make a smile on your face. But just remember that bad things are going to happen but, your loved ones will always try to make it better. Take care of youself. And if anyone hurts you. Tell me.

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Commented on: Mon Nov 06, 2006 @ 11:47pm


	I have so many friends that say that! O__O I think that You are ment to hurt people physically Ang, it is your nature. And it will also always put a smile on my face! ^^

Commented on: Tue Nov 07, 2006 @ 01:29am


	sweatdrop Sorry, I'm not. I tend to say talk like that alot now...x.X I blame LuiLui. He's rubbing off on me alot...Him and Elf... crying Elf.... I mean... ninja Yea.....You're welcome.

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Commented on: Tue Nov 07, 2006 @ 01:41am


	rofl It okay, I can get used to it.

Commented on: Tue Nov 07, 2006 @ 02:16am


	D: Joo don't have to if joo don't want to. I can always stop. XD;;

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Commented on: Tue Nov 07, 2006 @ 03:50am


	but I liked it! It reminded me of Rogue!

Commented on: Thu Nov 09, 2006 @ 03:13am


	crying dont do any of this stuff or i will be right behind you heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart crying crying crying crying crying emo emo emo emo emo ninja ninja ninja ninja ninja ninja twisted twisted

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Commented on: Thu Nov 09, 2006 @ 04:46am


	Nothing to say but wow.........i didn't no you weren't a virgin.wow.that is so random.sorry.

Commented on: Thu Nov 09, 2006 @ 02:03pm


	Oh geez, well....I ish better now, thanks for the support peoples.

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Commented on: Wed Nov 15, 2006 @ 06:56pm


	Well, that made me sad...but...It means I will work even harder to cheer you up! Hoo-hah! domokun

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