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Really long journal entry that probably doesn't have anything to do with you.
So if you don't care, don't bother reading.



Neh.

I haven't been feeling too grand lately.

Yeah, that guy that ruined my life a few years ago?

He started talking to me today, about how crazy I used to be about him..

Naturally, I denied everything and said I didn't remember any of it happening.

Fortunately Sam saved me and told him to stop making things up.

I feel like she's saved me before, I just can't remember, my memory's been failing me lately..

Everyone hates her, but I can't help but like her no matter how irritating she is. She just seems to save my a** by accident every once in awhile. I'm thankful for that.


My hair's getting thicker, so lately it's been more frizzy than usual.

Eww.

As if it could get any thicker in the first place.

Neh, I need to get it trimmed and prettied up soon, it looks like crap right now.

I need to get my face prettied up soon, too. D;

Oho.

Burn, Mady.

Burn.


So yeah.

Life's been kinda sucky lately.

Not cause ohmygodlifeisn'tworthlivinganymore, but because I'm just.. bleh.

I shouldn't be complaining in the first place, things could be soo much worse, but I'm a teenager. I'm supposed to take stuff for granted. And I shall.


I wish I wasn't so freaking shy.

It's really annoying how there are so many things I want to do, but I just can't because.. well, I just can't.

Haha.

I said 'things I want to do'.

Yeah, I doubt anybody will get the full meaning of that.

But honestly, I wish I could just get out there and have some fun.

Like pay a buck to make out with Little Jimmy, or something.

Just because I can.

But noo.

I'm too.. uncool.

Yeah, uncool.


I feel like I have nothing to look forward to.

There's Christmas, but I'm not as excited about that as usual because we've been having trouble with money since the tornado, and Christmas really won't help.

I could've gotten my temps days ago.

I could be learning to drive right now, but I don't want to.

Well, I really really want to, but I'm not that selfish.

If I learn to drive my parents will insist on buying me a car.

Which we don't have the money for.

But I need a job so I can help my parents with money.

But if I don't get a car, I can't get a job.

So I'm pretty much screwed moral-wise anyway.

I'm just gonna procrastinate a few more days and think about it later.