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Sometimes people dont realize how much they've changed..but I do. I notice changes early on. It scares me too sometimes..like something is wrong...I can feel it..I can't explain it I just know..I have that dream sometimes like that I was someone else once...like I've been to places and met people I don't know anymore..the dreams are always warping always changing. I keep on having like this story saga and I want to know who it is..she always dies always by the same person that saved her..Its not me that is her but yet I wonder what she wants from me..I think that if I ever find out I can be at peace..sometimes I wonder what makes me crazy too sometimes I wrry that everyone is right that I will become crazy like my mom and I'm afraid so afraid that I try to distance myself from anything that will leave a touch of her on me...they say I must beware of her that she could harm me..but really the harm I get is from them sometimes..that is my greatest fear. I try so hard not to be like her that I act mean sometimes just to get away from it..but the more I am not myself the more I become like her. I don't want to be crazy. gonk I don't want them to take me away I don't want them to think that I can't take care of myself that I always need someone so I don't tell them my decisions because I don't want them to end up thinking I'm not capable of being an adult..I really don't want people to read this but if they do its ok just don't comment..unless u do it in a pm..thanks
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