its stand really when you live with someone, you learn new things about them. maybe things you never wanted to know. you learn that they are lazy and somewhat inconciderate? i wonder if i will always be the "Mother" in here. i dont always wanna clean up after people, i have a hard time cleaning up after me. i wonder if people ever grow up and take responsibility for themselves? or will they be the same? what about people who dont want to grow up? will i become like my roomate? i dont want to be 30 and still be the same sort of slob and disorganized person i am. or hanging out with people half my age....its alright because its college, but what will happen in the furute? will that person still be the same? will they ever grow and become responsible? to care for others and realize things around them? i thought a lot about Gaia today. its like another world, but you cant abuse it or you will lose sight of real life and the people you are with. you will exist in the game and the world around you will ceast to exist and so will you. i worry about spending too much time on gaia-even more so, my roomate. it is a rutine to wake up, go to breakfast, go to class, come home after, put in at least 5 buckets of fishing, 2 hours of bidding-maybe more, bed and then the same routine in the morning. is that healthy? is it right? is it humane? is it wrong that i am concerned? i am a person of faith of people and myself. i help those who need it most to the best of my ability and i feel like this world i have introduced them to is an escape of reality because they dont want to face it. can that be the case? what if i dont want it to be the case. what if i want to talk to my best friend? what if i want to be human sometimes? just because i put on a "Godly" act all the time, saying im god and i help everyone and all-it does not mean that i am immortal. although i make myself out to be. Gaia is funny that way. it seems that there was a time i spent too much tim eon Gaia and watched too much anime and hung out with really screwed up people that i really believed myself to be a god and immortal. strange how some people end up that way.... i wonder if i will be like that forever? always looking happy....
i think im going to start a web comic on Gaia.....and post it in my journal. it would like be my feelings in a comic....it would be good for a portfolio in the future.
maybe....
well! i'm done venting. the funny thing is, i know my roomate will never read this! he is WAY too addicted to fishing.... lucky for me!
listening to: Jack Off Jill-Wicca
 Adiiru · Thu Dec 07, 2006 @ 11:36pm · 0 Comments |
