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Hiding All Alone

How can I hide?
How can I hide from the sneers?
How can I hide from the stares?
How can I hide from the disapproving frowns?
How can I hide from the faces surrounding me?
How can I hide from the hurt?
How can I hide from myself?

I keep trying to run away
Trying to sink into my self
Trying to fade away into the dark
Trying to slowly walk away

This time I dont want anyone to stop me
This time I want to disappear
I want to run away from everything
I want to hide from everyone

But I cant find a hiding place
I cant find anywhere to fade
I cant find anywhere to run away
I cant find anywhere to HIDE

I find myself talking to you
I find myself laughing at what you said
I find myself confiding in you
I find myself smiling at you while you talk to me
I find myself trusting you

Only to get hurt when you see me crying and do nothing
Only to plead for help with my eyes and get nothing
Only to feel the tears travel down my cheek and look at you
Only to feel helpless and you not helping

This gets me thinking that its better to be alone
I will always be there for me
I can fight everything off alone
I can stand strong alone
I can fall weak alone
I can cry alone
I can scream alone
I can feel everything alone
I can face my problems alone
Alone is better

Thats what Ive been trying to tell myself since the beginning
I just didnt listen
I just gave everyone second chances
I just trusted people
I just relied on people

And now I see
I should have paid attention to myself.
Youre right.
Alone.
Alone is better.

By:InnocenceRulesMe