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hey peoples im in 4th hour still feeling as crappy as ever im sitting next to one of those * I LUV THEM TO DEATH* friends lol YES ITS KATIE heart lol and uh yeah we still got a sub i had a good lunch. spagetti corn bread and peaches yep it was good for once im listening to " Im Not Okay" by MCR on my ipod .... it still hurts ... me and indy .. and i cant stand to get near him ... i still cant sleep that well ... its kinda retarded and faggity to get all worked up over some guy. but he wasnt just some guy to me. i guess im not met to have a boyfriend AND MAN I HATE ALMOST EVERYBODY IN THIS SCHOOL .. see first emily told me to bring my cell today so she could bluetooth me some tunes and she waz during gym and then thiz jerk called timmy was like " hey hilarie come here and give me a hug" and i was like " a hug?" and he was like " yeah" so i did then he loked at me and was like " you got nice tits" PSS i just wish i coulda stabbed. then i get my phone taken away and its just gettting hard to get up in the morning .. i cant sleep .. and i really dont eat my dinner ... and im starting to just hate my life .... and i cant talk to anyone because i dont want to make them think im some big winy baby who has to get attention BECAUSE IM NOT.... well my friends here are .. emily ninja katie heart kelsey pirate barb 4laugh woot there all great lets see emily is well shes like a ninja then theres katie and shes my lil popstar!!! then kelsey .. shes a pirate girl like me then theres barb whos cute as a button lol * >_> um i dont mean that in a sexual way* but yeah ... katies looking over and reading some of it ... i dont mind i mean she is one of my friends .... well i just wish it would stop hurting i mean ive never felt this way about any break up I mean i didnt even feel this horrible when me and travis broke up. its just i do my work listen to my ipod then go home and i cant really really smile .. well i can but for a few seconds then its gone .... this suxs so much ..... Katie says "hi" well im gonna go .. cya burning_eyes