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*I'm so sick of loving you,but its like I have no choice*
*every time I see your face, hear your face*
*its like I cant get enough of this pain*
*of your rejection*
*you'd be insane*
*to return my affection*
*I mean look at me*
*I'm so stupid,so broken*
*so destroyed, so ugly*
*and I've said words I wish I'd never spoken*
*I've believed so many lies*
*lied to myself so many times*
*no one hears these cries*
*and I always step out of line*
*out of my place*
*No wonder you hate me*
*want to forget my face*
*and I thought you'd save me*
*and after the pain you've added to*
*I still want to be with you*
*and it hurts so bad*
*to have someone you love hate you*
*I can't stop thinking of my ugly self*
*and the beautiful, perfect you*
*you'r beautiful soul*
*you'r beautiful face*
*I'm so clod*
*and I can never replace*
*your perfect self*
*with someonelse*
*when I try*
*its like I'm stuck with these lies*
*the lies I've lived before*
*like they follow me 'round*
*and I can't ignore*
*its destroying what I thought I'd finally found*
*but its only one more slip*
*one more loss*
*as my heart rips*
*one more time*
*once again*
*I do believe*
*it'll never end*
*and I'll greave*
*I know I have fake friends*
*I might have believed them before*
*but trust?Ha!I've closed that door*
and locked it tight*
because what I believe will never be right*
*my dreams fade away*
*my hope has gone a stray*
*my fairytale has burned*
*and my stomach churns*
*when I think of how stupid I was*
*to believe those lies*
*every time*
*and, because of obvious reasons, you don't feel the same*
*and with every passing season*
*I feel ashamed*
*of everything I do*
*and only partly because of you*
*I'm not, by any standards, good enough*
*not for trust, not for love*
*and I understand why*
*I guess I was only meant to cry....*

By:bonceffected