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I have this friend, who I love dearly in my own way, even though I’ve only meet him online… and before you think any further, it’s not love love, its more of a sisterly love in away I guess…

Anyway, this friend of mine doesn’t think he’s worthy of being on this earth, because nothing goes right for him, and he’s unwanted… he hasn’t come to the point where he wants to try and kill himself yet, so that’s a good thing, but I’m still worried about him… I’m worried that one day I may get a message from him saying that he’s sick of it all and that he’s ready to end it all… I know that probably won’t happen for a long time… at least I hope it won’t happen for a long time, but I still worry…

I think the main reason he doesn’t think he’s worthy though, is because he can’t see his admirable qualities. Like Tohru Honda, from the anime, and manga, Fruits Baskets, says: a person’s admirable qualities are stuck to their backs. So all over the world, people who think their plain and boring don’t realise that stuck to their back are their admirable qualities which make them different from everyone else… she also goes on about how people become jealous of another person because they can see the said person admirable qualities stuck to that said person back, and the said person doesn’t even realise they have it… but what the jealous person doesn’t realise, is that they’ve become jealous of an admirable quality they already have, and that they just don’t realise they have it.

What Tohru didn’t say though, is that if a person tries hard enough, they’d probably be able to recognise their own admirable qualities. If every person in the world, just took a moment, and reached behind themselves to touch their backs while their eyes are closed, then maybe, just maybe, you’d be able to see the shape and colour of your admirable qualities, which would bring you one steep closer to being able to bring your admirable qualities to the front of yourself, so that you, as well as everyone else, will be able to see them, shining brightly, though only you alone can use them, and only you alone would be able to touch them, and feel it’s warmth spread through you, melting even the coldest place of your heart and mind.

I think this is what my friend needs to do… even if this feels like an empty piece of advice to him… I’m sure it’ll help if he puts his mind to it… for there never should be a reason for you to feel unworthy of being alive in this world… because everyone deserves a chance to live, more so the people who are murdered or commit suicide… because if everyone, especially my friend, took that moment to look at their admirable qualities then maybe this world would be a better place to live…

That’s it I guess… I’m sorry if what I said sounded stupid, or didn’t make much sense, but it’s what I believe, and even if you’re not my friend who I’ve directed this mainly towards, I hoped it help you in away also.

Well… Ja ne.