Well all i can do is be depressed and now im slumping into a none stop drinking frenzy.. i just wanna drink till i cant feel lonley anymore... drink till i cant feel this pain anymore... drink till everything doesnt seem so ******** up anymore...
But everything i do just makes it more and more hard to breath..
Im not talking to thomas at the moment... fact is im jelious that he gets this wonderful ******** christmas while i have to listen to a billion arguments and feel like a million knifes are stabbing me in the heart everytime i think of who should be here on christmas day!.
I hate christmas and everything that surrounds it.
But everything i do just makes it more and more hard to breath..
Im not talking to thomas at the moment... fact is im jelious that he gets this wonderful ******** christmas while i have to listen to a billion arguments and feel like a million knifes are stabbing me in the heart everytime i think of who should be here on christmas day!.
I hate christmas and everything that surrounds it.
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