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i am so tired of this world... not 10 yrs ago everything just seemed like.. butterflies and sunshine, i mean it was a nice feeling, and the worst thing u had to worry about was like.. ur gameboy running out b4 u caught some pokemon on gameboy (lol XP) and now everything is sorrow and hate and anger and lust, envy, greed, the world revolves around money. am i the only one who thinks this way? is it always work, NEVER play. even when ur on vacation ur worrying about these damned schools that teach thing us things, that u r never going to use again, and then they say "well it's good to know" it'd be good to know 100% that there is a better life after this one, and that ppl u care about so much care the same, and to never worry about anything. i mean... have ANY of u thought about what the world would be like w/o money? w/o technology? we would probably be A LOT happier, and we could probably live together helping one another, instead of having some rich ppl get richer, and the poor grow weaker and poorer. i mean my OWN MOTHER doesnt care anymore.. we passed a homeless man in our car, and he has a sign that said "PLEASE GIVE FOOD, HAVENT EATEN IN 2 DAYS" and it said "GOD BLESSED" after it, and i was about to give him food, but my mom drove off, and the next time i saw him, i rolled down her window, and threw my lunch bag at him (NOT IN A MEAN WAY LOL like here ya go kinda way) and he didnt knwo what to do w. it.. he seemed so shocked someone gave him food, and i wanted to kill ppl 4 that... all they care of is buisness, and order, and money. what ever happened to love? and caring 4 one another? WHAT EVER HAPPENED TO GOD??? i mean we r taking his name out of everything.. off of money, out of the pledge of alligence, i dont even pledge the flag anymore. this dirt hole of a country deosnt deserve it. 'OH WERE AMERICA, WERE 4 RIGHTS AND FREEDOM, AND A SECOND CHANCE, AND WE R PROUD" WELL I'M NOT ******** PROUD OF ANYTHING!!! WE R LETTING KIDS AROUND THE WORLD BEING STARVED TO DEATH, THEIR STOMACHS LITERALLY COLLAPSING, AND WE R FIGHTING A WAR 4 WHAT??!!! OIL??? GOD??? i am just so sick of it, all we do is rely on money.. and all of us have forgoten whats really important, and all ppl do is talk about items, worldly possesions and ... i am just so tired of it.. i wish ppl would see, as soon as someone tries to talk like this, some guy says "DUDE THATS GAY" AND IT'S NOT GAY, UR JUST SCARED TO ACCEOT THE FACT, THAT THE WORLD ISNT ALL ABOUT MONEY AND GIRLS AND SEX!!! scream scream THERE IS ALOT MORE, AND I AM JUST TIRED OF IT ALL. I MEAN I DONT EVEN KNOW IF THE GIRL I LOVE LOVES ME, SHE SAYS SHE DOES BUT NO OFFENCE O AM TIRED OF ALWAYS KEEPING IT IN, BUT SHE SAYS IT LIKE THE OTHER 98 PERCENT WHO NEVER MEAN IT!!! THE KIND THAT GO "ya ya ily2" and i mean if this is all there is to live 4... lets just say i know there is a God, and IF by some chacne there isnt, and i die and there is nothing... I IWLL BE PISSED. lol thats all i have to say, and i think i will leave this up 4 a while so ppl can see. in conclusion the world is evil and sucks, but there always IS some good in this world.. it is just so hard to find at times.
(CRAP I KNEW I 4GOT SOMTHING LOL) AND NO MORE WARS!!!! there is enough violence in this world.. and there is enough evil, and it makes satan smile to see war and death and sorrow (not a good thing, i am serious, the real satan, the devil himself smiles at that...thats not good) OH and maybe some of u might not understand what i am saying cuz u havent experienced the sadness of the world like me and (not gonna mention any names) but some of my friends have.. i mean this is random, but me and my friends once tried to save a wild dove, and the STUPID PPL ON 911 WOULDNT TELL US THE NUMBER , AND MAYBE IF THEY TOLD US, IT MIGHT HAVE HAD A 3% BETTER CHANCE OF LIVING, BUT NO! IT HAD TO DIE RIGHT IN MY FRIENDS HANDS!!! I MEAN IT WAS CLOSING IT'S EEYS AND CHOKING UP BLOOD FOR GODS SAKE!!!! crying thats what it feels like to me.. to watch a poor dove die.. and especially when u own a pet dove, it's like watching the poor world die, especially when u understand it more and more each and everyday...