hhhhhmmmmm yeah too lazy to bother with any of the stuff thats bugging me but do you ever feel like you just need to cry and not like just crying with tears but with sound and everything for years ive had issues with it i blame rick and his sons and the fact that if they knew i cried the s**t i would get from them would just make things worse theres no sympathy and no space i feel like theres no where i can cry safely at least not like sobbing type cry
o and have you ever felt better simply for having tears come streaming down your face? the other day, i got really sad and then i started to cry and the tears just felt really good (i LOVE water) it just made me happy i guess
o but my point about all this was that i am so frustrated and stressed and depressed that its hard to do anything other than procrastinate (and my last counciling session only made things worse since we havent been talking about 'family' issues but rather me not getting stuff done issues) all i really want to do is lay in bed and daydream (i absolutely love daydreaming. . . . too bad i cant make it my profession crying ) and as it gets closer and closer to school starting up again, i feel a greater need to break down and cry and yet i cant let out all that i want because i really have no where to cry (anywhere outside the house is too public and inside the house is too full of assholes. . . . unless i actually get to be home alone at which point im usually too happy with being alone to think about crying)
Unni Ineo · Sat Dec 30, 2006 @ 10:44am · 2 Comments |