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Ugh, well its been so boring and ect.
Well first off yesterday I couldn't get on the computer because Christian brought over these 2 people who walk home with us and go to the same school?
Well yeah it was okay, they were cool.
But yeah, its been kinda a bore most of the time. I finally finished Kim: Lost Inside
and now I am half way done with Annie's Baby. I like this book, but I don't like the characters that well..... because the guy that got Annie pregnant is abusive and
just an a** all around, his name just happens to be Daniel. His nickname that Annie gives him is "Danny" gonk Also watched Brokeback Mountain with the sister because she wanted to see it too. Its not as bad as everyone makes it sound! scream
Lots of people in Geometry were talking today and I just almost cracked, but.....I just held back and just sat there reading in utter chaos.... till the bell rang and we went to nice quiet ELP heart
History was boring of course, just movies and taking notes =/
Lunch I just walked in the library again and I don't know but my backpack just got heavier and I sat down and my legs and arms were so dang tired from yesterday's weight training class </3
then in Digital Art we had to listen to 4 songs and choose one of them and then have to draw what we saw while we listen.
I just went to this one online playlist I had and listened to MY music! and Sergio (the guy who sits next to and hits me) told me I was talking to loud. then he grabed the volume thingy attached to my headset and "accidentally" blasted it up so everyone could hear it.I threw the headset off and turned the volume down instantly. So he was laughing his a** off. and nobody reacted so I was okay. but I had to be careful or I could get kicked out of that class =/
I can't make eye contact with anyone and that really makes mother mad and annoyes others. BUT THEY DON'T REALISE THAT I AM TO SHY TO DO THAT cept with my friends. MY FRIENDS! NOT CHRISTIAN'S!
Ugh, I feel like such a loser. Everyday now I just lay down in bed and listen to songs that make me think of Anna or Kaitlyn and David and Ferdi heart

Also.....my psychologist doesn't know whats wrong with me, I might need a better one but I told my mom "Forget it, stop wasting your money on trying to cure me from my anti-social shyness"
She says fine and its all done. I don't know. I have gotten so much helpless lately >_<;;
"Bleeding now I'm

Crying out I'm

Falling down and I'm

Feeling nothing like

Laughing now I'm

Stopping now I'm

Reaching out and I'm

Feeling nothing"

I don't feel like doing anything but talking to someone, not just anyone but my friends. More specifically Anna, Kaitlyn, Rachel, David, or Ferdi
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Okay I am done feeling sorry for myself.
Oh and I am reading books on What happens to people when they lose a loved one. It doesn't satisfy me </3