I just found out that my mother is going blind a few weeks ago she can hardly stand to be in a room with lights on anymore so shes forced to keep the lights off because it hurts her eyes so much. She doesn't want to stop driving becasue that would mean giving up her job and she doesn't want to do that becasue of my family is in debt and we need all the money we can get. Shes not eating very much any more because she's afraid she'll get fat. She lost 45/50 pounds in a week (shes 130 now)......at first I thought it was just from the heart medication she used to take because of the heart attack she had this previous summer, which had the side effect of making her throw up her food but....now tho she doesn't do that anymore she still wont eat. My dad's worried to he's always telling to eat something but she only takes a few bites of what ever she has....I'm so embarrassed when we go out to eat because I know she wont eat what she orders she'll just take it home and it'll be thown away a few weeks later. I thought this was all just because of that heart attack but its not......I wish there was something I could do I'm scared, I can't stop crying at night and it hurts so much. I'm afraid that someday when I wake she wont....I'm so scared every time the phone rings in school I'm afraid its someone calling to tell me my moms in the hospital.
I just don't know what to do I mean this IS MY ******** MOTHER!!! It'd be diffrent if it was my sister or maybe a brother but it isn't. What should I do.....
 Ahkrin · Wed Feb 07, 2007 @ 10:56pm · 4 Comments |
