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Umm.. i feel really awful about alot of things, and I don't think I'm ready to actually date, let alone LOVE. Each time i break up i try again w/ someone else, and i realize that that's just ignorant, and all the problems of my own familly/house life, then school and then relationships and then the past failures will build up, and i think i really just shouldn't for a while. MAN i thought i loved her but isn't it supposed to be some wonderful magical feeling??/ CHRIST I WISH I COULD JUST TALK TO GOD, AND NOT LIKE PRAYOR LIKE..FACE TO FACE AND ASK HIM WTF IS LOVE??!!! CUZ I AM SO SICK OF PPL TELLING ME WHAT IT IS, I KNOW WHAT IT IS, AND AT THE SAME TIME I DONT scream crying UGHH anyways.. -_- i'm getting really stressed out, being reminded everyday that i still don't love her, and i told her i did. Man i am so tired of this i think i shouldn't go out w/ ANYONE for a long time. Maybe i love her like i love cat and all my other friends. Like a caring love.. but i don't know if i am IN love. I dont want to hurt her, but i dont know what to do.

Posted by: Mourn-and-Torn Tue Feb 20, 2007 @ 07:29pm

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Commented on: Tue Feb 20, 2007 @ 09:30pm


	aww geeze... what ever happens i hope you make the right decision biggrin

Commented on: Tue Feb 20, 2007 @ 10:20pm


	I am not going to give you an answer...but Ill give you some advice.. Once apon a time, a girl named Allyson fell in love with a boy, the first night she met him..she tought he was the one..but then she got too caught up in love and wanted to jump into conclusions..and that just got her a ticket to broken heart ave. the point of that story was that some times too much of a good thing can be a bad thing.. Also, maybe if you tell her whats going on, she can really help you..you know? take some time to talk about how everything is going instead of just mushy love letters..because honestly your should know the person before you love them. But hey, I am just one person..only you can decided what to do..from the bottom of your heart. 3nodding

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Commented on: Tue Feb 20, 2007 @ 10:24pm


	KITTY YOU'VE MADE THE MOST SENSE OUT OF ALL OF THIS ^_^ TY!!! HUGS and no i know i've talked to her alot. and I've tried to tell myself "no it's just ur bitchy mood ward XD" and i know what a real relationship is, it isnt all just letters between me and her trust me, we talk alot on feelings ((I MAKE SURE OF IT XD she does too ^_^)) but.. it's really just alot to deal w/ now. I really think i should just stop.

Commented on: Wed Feb 21, 2007 @ 12:53am


	your welcome.. giving advice is my thing biggrin you can talk to me about anything [if you want] and Im sure she will understand 3nodding and thats good..I hate relationshits that dont have good conversations. hope everything turns out ok biggrin

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Commented on: Wed Feb 21, 2007 @ 02:28am


	Too bad I'm not the cooperative type.

Commented on: Wed Feb 21, 2007 @ 03:01am


	aww ward im sry ya i think u shuld give it a little more time than u did before who noes? to truly love someone u shuld noe them for a lOONNG TIME and be friends with them cuz yea...its better that way u already noe the person so u take it one step further. No ones rushing u into a relationship so u shuld take it slow and steady ull find love one day 3nodding just be patient adn give it sum time...i hope this helps.... sweatdrop i hope all goes well 3nodding

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Commented on: Wed Feb 21, 2007 @ 04:01am


	i know mia..and thanx, but some love CAN click like that lol, anyways hey, dont show pitty to me plz. we split up and she is alot more hurt than i am.

Commented on: Wed Feb 21, 2007 @ 04:07am


	im not showing pitty do i seem like i am? sry i noe how much u hate it crying

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Commented on: Wed Feb 21, 2007 @ 04:28am


	no lol ur just..a good friend ^_^ but ur caring for the wrong person ((me care for cynthia not me for this one, cuz she's hurt alot more)) no i just dont.. u know i dont want to seem like I AM THE HURT ONE, when really it's her u know?

Commented on: Wed Feb 21, 2007 @ 04:29am

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