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llama8o8
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Posted: Sun Feb 25, 2007 @ 05:29am

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	Help me get over it I want friends I want someone to hang out with on my weekends or after i get off work I want to be able to say "yes" when someone asks "oh going out?" I want someone to be excited to hang out with me "Oh Nicole let's go see that movie together tomorrow! We SO should!" I want someone to discuss plans of going to dinner when they come in to visit me at work I want someone to come in just to visit ME at work not a...oh i'll say hi to you since you're there too I want friends I don't want to spend my weekends knowing i have nothing to do no one to hang out with I'm tired of wanting to see movies but having no one to go see them with ........"well I could see them by myself" emo I feel so alone ._. But it's not me...right? At least that's what me and jarrod discussed It's not MY fault no one wants to hang out with me there's just no good people around that want to hang out with me I'm tired and alone and everytime I hear someone making plans with someone I thought considered me a friend...it makes me cry a little on the inside can't let it show now can we? heart we're friends just not outside of work heart I don't have to make friends at work..it's just easy...school is full of people absorbed in their own lives I don't want to seem desperate... but god damn I am cry I want the rain to wash away everything I want it to wash away the pain and the life I've lived I want it all... gone Is that why it always feels so good to let the rain drop on your face whenever you feel alone? That silent peace of having the rain wash away the sadness I don't know what's what anymore and I don't know what to do I don't want to have to wait until I find friends when i move with Jarrod That's too many months of being alone and we know this problem will repeat itself all in due time To many people having fun and talking about it around me Oh how I'm so sensitive to it all Oh how I'm so SENSITIVE ~She wanted love, I tasted blood... He bit my lip and drank my wound from years before Wallowing in hidden depressions is so relieving in a sadistic sense I hate that part of me Oh but so it goes.... I love the rain If only it would wash me away with it

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Oren the Brave
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Commented on: Tue Feb 27, 2007 @ 06:24am


	Aw man llama, I know exactly how ya feel. D; It's like.. i'm so alone all the time. I hate being around the house every day. I want something to actually DO when i'm not hanging out with Stacie. D; I want to get the Hell out of my place. ;o; And it's like, whenever I try to get something going with friends it often seems to fall flat. >_o Argh I wish I could hang out with you, but i'm too far away. ;__; Though I know that you'll find friends to hang around with ~<3 you're a very sweet girl with a loving personality. :3 You'll find somebody to hang out with eventually <333 just dun't give up hope heart

Commented on: Tue Feb 27, 2007 @ 10:44pm


	thats what jarrod says and i just dont know D;

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Oren the Brave
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Commented on: Mon Mar 05, 2007 @ 07:51am


	You are! o: things like these just takes time ~<3

Commented on: Tue Mar 06, 2007 @ 12:08am


	So, I don't even know why I felt compelled to look on here, but I did. I have a feeling that I may be part of the reason you wrote this. Especially since I went into Longs a couple hours before you wrote this and you were there and Baker brought up dinner. I just want to say that I'm definitely never trying to rub anything in your face on purpose. I have no objection to you joining in on any of our dinners. I have never invited you myself because the one day I did invite you to check out that store, then go eat with Bana and me you had some excuse that I thought was a fake-o "I just don't want to hang out with you" excuse. I would suggest that perhaps you should do the inviting? I doubt you'd get turned down.

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