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I'm not clapping.

Why? because I'm not ******** happy, that's why.

Actually, I'm just bored. I have been ALL DAY. Because NO ONE has been at the stupid house. Except Lex, whom I'm not talking to, because he called me a c**t. Not that I mind that, it's just that I'm not one. but that wasn't the really bad part. Things started going downhill when I decided to start dinner for Maren. That is, Maren had decided that since it's her house, she's allowed to order me to boil the pasta for dinner. Why does liquid take so damn LONG to gather the energy to turn into a gas? honestly, it took 12 minutes and 37 seconds. Which is TOO LONG. I must have checked the pot thirty times. And the 31st time, when it still wasn't boiling, I left and took a nap... but by the time I got back, the pot had boiled over.... which of course, means that I had to start all over. Buuuut, since I didn't know how much water or whatever to uuuuse, I just threw the pot out of the window and went to find something more entertaining to do.

Of course, I didn't find something/someone more entertaining to do, but i did get the song "Shiawase Desu Ka?" (Are You Happy?) stuck in my head. To fix that, I spent an hour trying to see if there was a song called "Iie, Boku wa Shiawase Desu" (That's not true, I'm happy.) But I couldn't.... which led me to decide that I was indeed unhappy, as the first song sugests.

To remedy my unhappiness, I decided to go to my room. Which was a really, really dumb idea, cuz my room in Maren's house is all ugly and bare and i never stay there. The thing that really ruined my evening happened there. My windows... They don't have panes or anything,they're just clear glass. So... anyways, this little bird, while I was looking out the window, a little sparrow or chickadee flew into the window and broke its neck. I started crying so hard... I just felt so bad. I mean, I know that my windows are practically death traps for birds like that, but to actually see a bird die, because of me.... it was bad. After I was done crying, I must have fainted, because next thing I knew, Maren and Sichi and Wolf and Trace were home and the sun had gone down.

Shiawase desu ka?