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i dont know were i am.
im lost in the desart sand.
no were to go. but i cant stay here.
it's killing me. not to know which way to go.
i need you.
but i just lost you.
you were the only one.... the only one that understude.
and now your gone... gone for ever.
y did you have to run in the street's.
y did you have to go when i needed you the most.
u left me here.
now it's over.
no firend's.
no famely.
im an outcast.
you... you were the only one that understand me.
you sead that every thing would be ok evan when it wasnt.
you sead. i love you when no one eals did.
i trusted you... i trusted you when you sead nothing bad will happen to use.
now look what you did. you childish fool.
now your dead.
I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU.
y did you have to die and leave me here.
y did you go away. go away when i needed you the most.
now my life is over. gone. it has no purpouse.
if only i knew.
i was the one that told you. told you to do what you thought was best.
causing you to run away.
it's my fault.
im sorry i left you down.
i didnt mean to hurt you.
i just did what i thought was best.
y did you have to commet suicide.
you know. thank's to you. thank's to you my life is HELL.
no one understand's.
no one care's.
and if they do.
it's just cuz they dont whant to see me sad.
they dont care that my best friend/boyfriend just commeted suicide over the phone with me.
they dont understand what it's like to hear a gun shout going off when you on the phone with some one, and it turn's out that they took there dad's gun and shout them self in the head.
i understand that people have problume's im not saying that mine is the worst out there. i just whant people to understand what im going threw.
so they dont take thing's that i say are crule sireously.
but. i have to be honist.
i almost died today. i couldent take it.
all thease thought's in my head.
the voices. taring me apart.
I STILL LOVE YOU..