but really. here's my idea of helping you out. since it was talking to me that got you in trouble, and it is because of me you can't do anything unsupervised, well, stop loving me. do it. it's the only way to get your life back to some degree of happiness. your parents wont get on your case about you being on the phone too long and at late hours. this is really hard for me to do, but if you don't stop loving me, well, im gonna have to do something drastic that would break my whole honor code into a million pieces. please. it's for the best. but don't think of it as me wanting you not to love me. i want you to love me. but it's just that if you don't love me, then you won't have any problems pertaining to the phone, and your mom worrying about what you'll do with me, cuz well you won't talk to me ever again. i hate that i have to say this. it really hurts and makes me wanna take everything back. but i can't i have to be strong enough to implement this idea, because it's the only way i can think of that would get you out of trouble when it comes to me. it's the only way. i wanna take everything back. i really do. i just can't. your life will just get more painful if you continue to love me. even though i keep you from breaking down some of the time, i just can't see you like this. it is not only wrong, but it was all because of me. and it's just too much for me to handle knowing that i caused you pain, and suffering. it's just too much. i am sorry for what i have done to you, and i hope you could forgive me for all the pain i caused. but i guess its time for me to leave your life permanently. so forget me. forget that i was who i am. and instead rewrite in my place that you met someone, who was nice, and gave you comfort. also that he had to go away. just remember that. i don't want you to forget me, but i think its for the best. the best for you. it is best that you forget about me and move on. find someone else who would give you the love that i have for you. but i want you to find that person, and hold on to him. i don't want to give you up, and i want to take back all of what i have said. but its for the best. its the only way, and it's hard for me to let you go. but i must. your happiness comes before me and your relationship with me. so, you will be happier with someone else your parents know and can trust. well, i guess this is goodbye. i don't want to lose you, and let you go. i don't know what i will do now that you're gone from me. maybe sit and be lonely, and never love again. cuz the only one i love right now is you. so...........goodbye. forever
hey. i love you as much as you love me. and that is a lot. a whole lot. so much, there isn't a word to describe it. well, i like your new background image. it is very soothing, and i just wish i could take you there, and we could spend eternity together. I LOVE YOU LINA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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