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By Myself:

What do I do to ignore them behind me?
Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams
and give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do I sit here and try to stand it?
Or do I try to catch them red handed?
Do I trust them and get fooled by phonieness?
Or do I trust nobody and live in lonlieness?
Because I can't hold on when I'm streched so thin.
I make the right moves but I'm lost within.
I put on my daily facade but then
I just end up getting hurt again.

By myself (Myself)
I ask why...
but in my mind I find
I can't rely on myself (Myself)
I ask why...
but in my mind I find
I can't rely on myself.

I can't hold on.
To what I want when I'm streched so thin.
It's all too much to take in.
I can't hold on.
To anything watching everything spin.
With thoughts of failure sinking in.

If I turn my back I'm defenseless.
And to go blindly seems senseless.
If I hide my pride and let it all go on
then they'll take from me till everything is gone.
If I let them go I'll be outdone.
But if I try to catch them I'll be outrun.
If I'm killed by the questions like a cancer.
Then I'll be buried in the silence of the answer.