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Each day I wonder
Why am I here?
What is my rason to live?
my life is full of lonelness and sepression
I punish my body from depression I feel blood flows as my pain leaves my toren body, pudles of blood appear by my feet.
Why am i here?
to feel pain for others while they are full of cheer.
What is my reason to live?
to make those around me feel better about their selfs after they laugh and put me down.
Each day I wonder
Why was I born?
Was I meant to be?
darkness is around me
I watch as people walk by with the sun shining over them while I sit alone covered by the darkness of the moon.
Each night tears fall as I wonder why me?
Why was I born?
To feel alone in a dark world?
Was I once a greedy prince and I was reborn in this life?
Was i meant 2 be?
I wonder was I meant to be. Why can't I just die? Guess I can't so people can laugh and make me feel like s**t...
These thoughts go through my head each day. Over and over they play like a record on the same note.
I wonder if this is a lifeof another or am I the only one?
That's all I can do....
I can just wonder