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OK other than feeling liek an idiot, i might be able to get a job, RIGHT ACROSS MY STREET TOO biggrin just gotta wait for their say so, and then it'll be good for that step in my life ^_^ but it's like, one step forward, and 2 back. see when i said "OK other than feeling liek an idiot" earlier, i mean't i feel really dumb, and i guess i should. I've been appologizing for all i've done to Osaka and Cat and anyone else that might have gotten hurt, but I really wish i could let them know i SERIOUSLY W/O DOBT AND TRUTHFULLY HONESTALLY FROM MY HEART MEAN IT, WHEN I SAY "I'M SO SORRY" X_Xll i feel like i talk to a wall cuz they go "it's ok" but damn i wish they would see, i REALLY AM CAT D: I will think and ask u "whats up w/ that?" next time, b4 tackeling anyone like i did Osaka again. sweatdrop and as much as i mean i am sorry, and as much as i really am, i can't help but to still feel a bit like "well he shouldnt have etc etc etc." XD maybe it's just the kid in me, but i really think it's cuz i hate getting yelled at by Cat or her getting mad at me ((btw she didnt like, REALLY yell XP)) or dissapointed in me, i never want her to be dissapointed in me, ugh man X-X i've just been dumb, but ok as i was gonna finish, i cant help but feel a bit alone w/ all this. I just hope she's truley happy is all ^_^