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AGHH I FEEL BAD D: here is why... i posted this in my other accoutns journal, on april 2nd.


sigh..again i miss her, i wont say who just in case one of u actually reads this, LOL AND GOD FORBID BE HER. u all should know who i mean ((CAT there happy? XP)) i really miss her, i mean i dunno, i feel i can actually write here cuz not everyone wil be watching, or would watch at all XD so yeah. I dunno.. i wish i could kiss her again and prove that i only want her, how oh so much i wish i could be hers, but i will have to wait while she is w/ another guy. It does suck but, i can do it ^_^ that one day when we will go out again (IF we go out, well we never techiqually went out in the first place, but yeah)) it;ll be all worth it to look in her beautiful hazil green/golden eyes, and kiss her on the lips softly and show her that she is the onle one i want, and i mean it, i'm sorry to some girls that might like me, but really i only want Cathy Gutierrez... so yeah. I wish i was better for her, and i know i know it's not my fault i get it XD but still, i want to be the best for this beautiful princess of my everything.

and then on the same day, i posted anohter-

UGHH X_X it's not as bad as i am making it, i havent cried or anything but damn.. i will miss it, i guess it's not so bad because.. i kinda have this feeling.. : ) that in a few weeks, maybe months me and her.. oh maybe- >_<;; anyways still miss her so grave and dearly.


((and then the first one again basically -_- XD))

((i'll just put the journal from b4 here.))

sigh..again i miss her, i wont say who just in case one of u actually reads this, LOL AND GOD FORBID BE HER. u all should know who i mean ((CAT there happy? XP)) i really miss her, i mean i dunno, i feel i can actually write here cuz not everyone wil be watching, or would watch at all XD so yeah. I dunno.. i wish i could kiss her again and prove that i only want her, how oh so much i wish i could be hers, but i will have to wait while she is w/ another guy. It does suck but, i can do it ^_^ that one day when we will go out again (IF we go out, well we never techiqually went out in the first place, but yeah)) it;ll be all worth it to look in her beautiful hazil green/golden eyes, and kiss her on the lips softly and show her that she is the onle one i want, and i mean it, i'm sorry to some girls that might like me, but really i only want Cathy Gutierrez... so yeah. I wish i was better for her, and i know i know it's not my fault i get it XD but still, i want to be the best for this beautiful princess of my everything.

((just look at the damn journal XD see, i was gonna post the long one first, and then put in the "it's really not so bad as i make it" one as a comment, but when i went to post the "it's really not so bad as i make it" one, i put it in a new JOURNAL ENTRY, not a new comment XD))'

Ok, now see, this was one of those fake "i hope no one sees it" deals -_-lll like, basically i didnt want ppl to see it, but then again i did. Like, when u want someone to know somthing, but not be hurt by it, and Cat i promise, it really IS ok now ^_^ but i thought "if i want to get our bestfriendness back, then i will have to be true and honest w/ this and everything" so i showed you. And plz PLZ DONT FEEL BAD X-X it seriously IS ok ^_^ i really do swear and promise it, BUT lol i do need to talk to u about this guilt thing XDD I MEAN STUPID GUILT, i dont have anything big really, i promise XD but i do feel guilt for some dumb shight X_x so i need u to reinsure it's nothing to be worried of sweatdrop anyways i'm sorry i kept this from u and everyone. sad