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Tears Of Blood:
The blood takes away my tears.
It takes all my pain away these past years.
But it hurts the ones i love.
So i must rise above.
My heart aches of sorrow.
Fears the pain that awaits tomorrow.
No one understands me anymore.
I have completely shut my door.
What if i just disappeared?
My mind has been smeared.
I just want to die.
But then i look up in the sky.
And know there's more.
To be here for.

^2-21-08^


Forgotten:
Fearful eyes.
Coldstruct lies.
You can't control your voice.
You tell me you have no choice.
A sudden gash is upon my lip.
Blood begins to drip.
You begin to realize what you've done.
The feeling of guilt has overcome.
You say your sorry, you didn't mean to.
You don't know what to do.
Cold silence falls over the room.
You're towering.
I'm cowering.
And you all have forgotten...

^2-22-08^

Fly Away

Give me wings so I can fly away.
And never come back another day.
Give me the key.
So I can fly away and be free.
No words will be said.
As if i’m dead.
Free me from all my fears,
And get me away from here.
Clothes tattered,
As if nothing else mattered.
Does anyone dare,
To free me from this life long nightmare?
Set me as free as a bird,
So none of my screams will ber heard.
Say goodbye,
And set me free into the sky.

^3-25-08^

The End.

Drowning in my thoughts.
Remembering the battles i’ve fought.
Voices echoing in my head.
If this continues I will soon be dead.
I’m going over the edge.
Maybe i’ll jump off the ledge.
My feelings are masked.
When they show people are aghast.
Streaming with tears.
Running from all my fears.
I look up in the sky.
Wondering why.
Why i’m still here.
With everything to fear.
Choking, Drowning, Suffocating.
And soon my life is fading...

^3-28-08^

Breaking...

Your eyes cut through my soul.
My heart is your toll.
In the sunlights morning bliss,
My heart aches in amiss.
This despondent sorrow.
Is interminable beyond the end of tomorrow.
Words of abhor are quite profound,
To death is where i'm bound.
For the only love,
Is with the angles above.

^4-10-08^

Poison.

Poison of today.
Suffocating in the memories of yesterday.
Poison of tomorrow.
My heart sinking in sorrow.
The poison seeps within me.
Locked away without the key.
Sinking further into despair,
Knowing no one cares.
Until the poison takes my one last breath.
Bringing me to my silent death.

^4-12-08^

Free.

I will be free from your cold eyes.
I will be free from your heartfelt lies.
I am suffering.
Suffering in the memories you bring.
Gone forever in a mystery of lies.
My heart is spirling downward as it dies.
Living in a life full of disappointment.
A life without excitement.
Suddenly bruises appear.
You begin to see the fear.
With one jump.
And a thump.
Leave me be.
And i'm free.

^4-25-08^

Failure.

The silent night creeps over me.
Laying still as can be.
With a bite of my lip.
The blood begins to drip.
Giving up trying to be perfect.
Accepting that I am a reject.
The faint train whistle echoing in my head.
Remembering you are dead.
Nothing will ever be the same.
Knowing I am to blame.
The anger boiling inside.
Soon my feelings and mind will collide.
Being told I am dumb.
Feeling so numb.
The tears begin to flow.
This feeling no one will ever know.
Curling up in a ball.
I begin to fall.
Spining around and around.
Until I hit the ground.
Silent as I lay.
My life slowly fading away..

^4-14-08^

A new dawn.

My heart can not obain.
This much pain.
Feeling so alone.
My heart becoming stone.
Being so confused.
Feeling so used.
Tears winding down my face.
Take me to a different place.
This world is so cruel.
Being treated with such ridicule.
Faking smiles everyday.
Watching what I have to say.
Words slicing through my heart.
As if they were a poisonous dart.
Flashbacks of your death.
I'm beginning to lose my breath.
Not wanting to think about this fate.
I'm beginning to capitulate.
And by dawn.
My life will be gone.

^4-18-08^

Lost.

My life is spent digging a grave.
No time to behave.
I'm so ashamed.
This feeling can not be tamed.
I turn my head.
Wishing I was dead.
Looking up to the stars.
Covering up the scars.
The tears begin to flow.
Forgetting everything I know.
Nothing seems real.
I don't know how to feel.
Standing still.
Waiting for the kill.
Overwhelmed with emptiness.
My life is such a mess.
Being told.
I've become so cold.
Not knowing why.
Why I want to die.
Everyone is so two faced.
In this world I was misplaced.
People are so fake.
My heart begins to break.
I'm so insecure.
Everyone is a blur.
With one slit.
I say only a little bit.
Loosing my goal.
I begin to lose control.
Right through the vein.
I feel no pain.
And there I lay.
Never seeing another day.

^5-21-08^

Waiting.

Smashing all these mirrors.
Facing all my fears.
You think you've got it so bad.
But you don't know the life i've had.
No trust left.
All the lies you've kept.
You've made it clear.
That you don't need me here.
Tears streaming down my face.
Wishing to be free from this place.
Overwhelmed in despair.
Living this life long nightmare.
Thoughts of sorrow.
Hope for no tomorrow.
Flashing back on my past.
Live moving on so fast.
People are so cruel.
Thinking everyone is a fool.
Drowning in my breath.
Waiting for my silent death.
Overwhelmed in darkness.
These memories I can not suppress.
And here I lay.
Aching for someone to tell me it'll all be okay.
I'll just keep pretending.
And await my happy ending.

^6-9-08^

Hidden.

Rage filled inside.
Happiness I am denied.
I thought you were a friend.
But my life you just wanted to end.
Filled with self doubt.
I can't get out.
Strapped down to a bed.
My heart pounding in my head.
The jacked suffocating me.
This cruelty no one will ever see.
Listening to painful cries.
Lies lost in lies.
My sanity I can not gaurantee.
I need someone to rescue me.
Hiding behind me mask.
No more pain is all I ask.
My life I will abolish.
And you shall have your wish.
Put me to sleep.
To the grave these secrets I will keep.

^6-23-08^