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tomorrow is my birthday, so happy birthday to me. ya Ill be 20 can you believe it. god I feel so old. where did all the time go. really where? God I look back on it and wondered id I make the right choses? have I really done any thing with my life worth menching? I know its not much of a big deal to any one else but scared to death of life and what s to happen in the up coming years. I keep trying to make some thing of my self but I'm afraid that ill never get out from under the whet of it all. Well they say hope is wasted on the hopeless.

So tell me my friends what do you do. the clock is running down and so ill be out of time and all that I hope to do will be all in vain. what will this life led me to do? will I be able to make it out un scath? well most likely not the world doe not work as such. All that I am and all that I will be is stedally reaching the end. How can I keep up? what is there to this life? tell me please becuse Im scared of whats to come. God some Happy birthday an't it?