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ok.. here it goes...
I love you more than anyone or anything. you brought meaning into my life. when ever I can hold you everything is fine no matter what whenever I see you its the new best moment of my life... I dont want to take a break amber.. I love you so much... I dont understand why or how.. i mean yeah your beautiful and stuff but something about you.. theres just something about you that i know i could never find in another girl... i dont want to take a break amber i want to be able to call you my girlfriend. from now until forever.. no for now and later on I want to call you me fiancee. and my wife.... amber I want to ask you something... a really important question even though im not ready for it.. yeah I dont have the money and im probably not responsible enough for it.. unfortunately its not something im gonna ask you on myspace.. as much as i want you to hear it... nor on the phone... amber I want to start anew maybe. i want to base our relationship on eachother. and how i feel about your personality.. i want to take the focus off physical attractions and wants not that we have to I mean i will do anything to make you happy but I want to do whatever it takes to stay with you forever amber... i want you to have my kids and i want to come home to you every day and i want to sleep next to you every night and wake up to you every morning... and i DONT want to freak you out about all this but its just.. its just how I feel.. I dont know what i would do if I couldnt have you... amber I would wait for you for any amount of time. and if it comes down to you permenantly staying with your dad... ya know i would move I would i would just need to get everything in order and I would go I would follow to the ends of the earth.. with your blessing I mean I dont want to smother you and I dont want to do anything you dont want me to do but ... i dont know why i said ok i have to go and why i didnt explain all this on the phone.. i just... well for one i didnt want you to hear me... ive pretty much been crying since i got off the phone with you and i was gonna cry myself to sleep but I couldnt sleep... not with all the thoughts about you... I hope that you can forgive whatever mistake I made for you to want to take a break.. I will change for you amber.. or stay the same for you or anything.. anything i swear amber your more important to me than money.. more then games and family and religion and life it self... you mean the world to me.. you mean more than that to me your everything and more.. I really want you to be with me amber... I really want this to work.. I love you so much..I have almost every letter you;ve given me and ive read them over and over and over again since i got on the phone with you.. got alot of them wet with my tears to.. dont get me wrong im not trying to make you feel guilty.. i just.. i just want you to be able to comprehend how much i care about you... Even if you still want to be apart... which i pray to all powers that can control it you dont.. I will wait and pray to any god and every god that I can someday be good enough to be with you again... please dont leave me amber. i love you.. please call me or write me back as soon as you can... my head hurts so bad and im sick to my stomache... i need.. i would say you.. but if you truly dont want to be with me... than I guess ill just lose the first real feeling of love ive ever had and I know i will never get the same feeling with anyone else... ok i dont know if your even gonna have the time to read what ive typed or if your gonna bother reading it or just deleting it but well.. yeah.. I love you Amber Turner... I want you to be Amber Huycke(my last name sucks i know... :-/) I want to have a family with you...
but... I guess its all in your hands now.. i truly love you from the deepest depths of my soul.. from everything i have to love you with and everything i will ever have to love you with... I hope to hear form you soon.